simply sandy

2003-09-11T22:15:00.000-07:00

over and over i cried
and over and over you lied
getting over and over my pride

md says it best though:
... it just seems all the loving has died between friends but on the weekends i be getting better fun on the side with a sexier *guy*... so take your bitch as home!

haHA! what now, betcha didn't see that coming! you're always claiming that life doesn't give you what you deserve, so why don't you take this like man that you say you are. this is EXACTLY what you deserve for trying to make assumptions that you dont know jack shit about. i can't believe that you asked if they "ran train on me." that is BULLSHIT. sorry to dissapoint you willie, i am not a hoe. the only HOES around here are you and you LITTLE girlfriends. and notice the emphasis on LITTLE, you don't wanna be the next r. kelly now? or do you?? well if you do, that'll be great! cause then you can add ANOTHER potential FELONY to your record : )

*perhaps it's because of my own self-doubt. perhaps it's because you were the person who broke my trust and scarred me for life. perhaps the reason i am the way i am is because of all your lies. perhaps this was just a really twisted version for an eye for an eye. whatever the reason was, it happened and nothing can reverse it. accept me for who i am, and i ask for some kind of respect for being truthful. this is me, take it or leave it.

2003-09-10T21:35:00.000-07:00

"It's been awhile since you came around
Now ya wanna see what's goin' down
Tryin' to tell me how ya want my time
Tryin' to tell me how I'm on your mind
See it never had to be this way
You should of never played the games you played
Now I'm seein' that you're kinda lame
Knowin how the situation changed

I remember how you walked away
Even when I tried to call your name
See at first I didn't understand
Now you're lookin' like a lonely man
I remember how you did me wrong
And now you're hurtin' cause my love is gone
Everybody gets a chance to burn
You can take it as a lesson learned

I really wish you wouldn't send me gifts
Tryin' to make me sit and reminise
Tryin' to blind me with your blingin' bling
Thought I told you love don't cost a thing
Hope you realize that now I'm through
And I don't ever wanna hear from you
I had enough of bein' there for you
Now I'm laughin' while you play the fool

Ain't that funny
Baby that you want me, when you had me
Love is crazy, now I can smile and say
Ain't that funny
Baby that you want me, when you had me
Love is crazy, I'm glad I can smile and say
Ain't that funny"

oh yeah haha. tomorrow's mommie's birthday. and also the 9/11 anniversary : (
lesson today: to be the best person i could possibly be. to inspire others to be the same. people should celebrate life. personally, i think it's much easier going through life being optimistic than pessimistic. love is what makes the world goes round : )

toodles! *kiss kiss*

2003-09-09T22:28:00.000-07:00

cuRReNtLy bUMPiN: skin deep - md of rnd

i've decided that if ever become a failure in life, i'll move to taiwan and try to pursue a career as a pop star. all i'll have to do is learn how to sing decently, brush up on my chinese and then i'll be good to go! haha, if only.

i'm still confused as to what i want with life right now. should give him yet another chance? perhaps i just want affection, but i can't help it, it's addictive! i've been trying to not have any wants or desires, but i'm only human and it's hard : T my wild imagination creates crazy fantasies of "what if..." but of course, they're just fantasies. i can't help but to stray from reality.

attention is short lived, transitory
its only good temporarily
true love and care lasts longer
you just have to deal with it accordingly
if youre kind of unsure dont think and worry about it too much.. your studies are your first priorities
... words of wisdom from my arabian knight : )

toodles! *kiss kiss*

2003-09-09T00:00:00.000-07:00

cuRReNtLy bUMPiN: get gone - rnd

so today i had bio lab, which was pretty boring. but i got the bestest surprise in the world when my three favorite guys came to visit, which was one of the nicest things anybody has ever done for me. then we bought some stuff and cooked food, wow! at least this time nobody put a freakin burrito in the microwave for 10 mins hehe. i just had a nice time chillin with them. thanks for always making me smile, i love you guys : )

silly me, but i have finally realized what wonderful friends i have. the fact that people have made me a part of their life is simply amazing. the love and affection i receive from them goes beyond anything that any one particular individual could ever show me. you guys have made me truly happy. thank you.

toodles! *kiss kiss*

2003-09-07T01:25:00.000-07:00

cuRReNtLy bUMPiN: stand up

the bestest birthday ever! i passed my drivers test which means that i can finally drive legally now! it's funny cause my mom would hardly ever say anything when i drove her around with my permit, but AFTER i got my license, she was all critiquing me and stuff. then i got back to school at around lunchtime, where i got some love from lyn, ryan, and chinatown helen! thanks guys!! chilled with my mommie for a bit, and then pat picked me up buy stuff. then when i got home i realized that my car had been all p.i.m.p.ed out. and my room had been redecorated as well, thanks to snoop, ashanti, and bow wow. it looked awesome, you guys are the greatest!!! things really didn't go as planned cause i had to pick up aw, britton and brandon, and then i ended up getting home 30 mins late, sorry everyone!! but then everything turned out cool and it was great! thanks to everyone who showed up, i love you guys!

today i woke up with a sore throat, my tonsils are swollen again, which means i'm sick or about to get sick. must've been cause of the extreme temperature changes at school: freezing cold classroom vs. hot ass weather outside. i knew it was gonna make me sick real soon. i didn't really get up till like until 2ish, and my body was sore all over. decided not to go to the renaissance thing cause i didn't feel up for driving by myself. so i opted to spend the day with the a-team, haha. just a nice chillin day today.

toodles! *kiss kiss*

2003-09-04T19:59:00.000-07:00

cuRReNtLy bUMPiN: into you

wow tomorrow is almost here?!?!?!

school has just begun, and i'm just beginning to feel a minor dose of stress. just looking at the syllabus for english almost made me throw up, reading 3 or 4 more books this semester, one informal oral assessment, 2 world lit papers, and the wonderful world of poetry, which i still haven't even began to really comprehend after 2 years of english. but anyways, math is cool, just not the 0 period part, well at least i'm guaranteed a parking space haha. bio is okay, although it is quite scary that ms. lin reminds me of my mother, *shudders*. french is intimidating. renaissance is fun, yet a little intimidating as well, i hope i actually bond with the veterans. econ is pretty interesting and us seems boring. oh how i am dreading wednesday block days.

i had a nice lil bonding chat with sisco yesterday, thank you for making me feel special : )

i ended up not planning much for my party, not to mention inviting people. the heat has gotten to me, it made me delirious. well whoever ends up showing up, shows up i guess.

toodles! *kiss kiss*

2003-09-02T00:08:00.000-07:00

cuRReNtLy bUMPiN: so gone

it's the day before school starts, and yet i'm still up, damn you insomnia.

finished my journals in the past 2 days, seems like procrastination will always get the best of me. went with aw to get me and jane's present for pat. yeah it's late but it's the thought that counts. it was an ... interesting ... experience. went to ikea today, got a cover for my comforter. my bed is so pretty, and it's also my favorite thing in my room hehe.

once again it's evident why i left you in the first place.

it's now official, four more days!

toodles! *kiss kiss*

2003-08-31T01:53:00.000-07:00

cuRReNtLy bUMPiN: miss you

i miss someone ... i'm not sure who. i guess i just feel lonely. man, this independent stuff sure is tough to get used to. sometimes i just want to go back to my old "life" so badly, and it's so hard to resist. i just want some affection, and maybe even feel important to someone for once. this sucks. i must learn to be patient. but anyways ...

finished driving school today. 5 more days, i'm almost there. went to my cousins' house for dinner, just ate and chilled like always. sometimes i wish that i could have the opportunity to live other people's lives for a day, or at least just follow them around to see what it's like being in their shoes.

went bowling yesterday with sharon, jane, staci, pat, danny, jiun and jackie. girls vs. boys and of course the girls kicked ass. then just chilled the rest of the night.

still not completely sure what i'm doing for my bday. why do i always doubt myself?? hopefully things will turn up decent. still need to clean the house.

i only did 3 journals out of 60, i'm beyond screwed.

nite nite, sweet dreams! *kiss kiss*

2003-08-28T00:13:00.000-07:00

cuRReNtLy bUMPiN: the hero dies in this one - the ataris

today i got my books and i had the hardest time bringing it back to the car. i literally broke a sweat. then i realized that my antenna is bent, stupid ryan telling me that i'm crazy. so now it gets in the way whenever i open or close the trunk. so i guess i'm kinda forced to get the s2k antenna. i called the honda dealer and they said it was like some 137 dollars?!?!?! they must be trippin', so hopefully i can get it online or something. i went back to my roots today, first time i had black hair in like 3 or 4 years! still not sure what i'm doing for next friday ... off to do more journals!

toodles! *kiss kiss*

2003-08-26T16:37:00.000-07:00

cuRReNtLy bUMPiN: learning to breathe - switchfoot

okay i'd have to admit, i have a little bit of a mischievous side to me. i give in to my urges way too easily and i definitely need to learn to take control of myself. at least i managed to finish reading one book, but no journals, well i'm going to finally start working on that after this. i guess i had a mini self-awakening again. i really liked this one quote from siddhartha:

when someone is seeking it happens quite easily that he only sees the thing that he is seeking; that he is unable to find anything, unable to absorb anything, because he is only thinking of the thing he is seeking, because he has a goal, because he is obsessed with his goal. seeking means: to have a goal; but finding means: to be free, to be receptive, to have no goal.

i've always been interested in learning about oneself. for the past 2 weeks, i've learned something different about myself everyday, and it feels great. today i learned a good handful of things about me. i don't regret doing anything in my life. everything happens for a reason. i accept the consequences of my actions, even for the things that i'm not proud of. but i learned from all the mistakes that i've made, and i think i've become a better person. but one thing that i want to change about myself is my approach to finding/looking for love. it seems like i always look for love in the wrong places, and i usually go for the same "type," it's bad. so i've decided not to go out seeking for love, and to well, just let love find me. yeah, that's a good plan.

toodles! *kiss kiss*

2003-08-24T20:44:00.000-07:00

cuRReNtLy bUMPiN: fire

for the first time in a great while, i'm actually content with the way i look. i learned that i actually posess some good qualities haha. i love my hair, but it's gotta go. i don't want to change it, but it has to be done. i need a new look to go with the new me. i really really like the whole light brown with blonde, so i'll probably come back to again some time in the future. but for now, i'm gonna go back to my roots : )

another driving lesson today. practiced in west co to prep for my driving test, which is on my birthday!! wow, only 12 more days till i turn 16 and hopefully become a licensed driver. i guess the fact that i'll be able to drive legally when i get my license excites me, yeah it's kind of stupid and kind of sad as well. i'm growing up but part of me doesn't want to. i don't think that i hardly ever act my age. i'm usually sort of immature, i still dance around the house watching cartoons instead of doing productive things. but then again when it comes to like relationship type stuff, i think i'm just a little more mature. but then again it would be really pathetic if i didn't learn anything from the past two years of my life eh? enough procrastinating today, take care!

toodles! *kiss kiss*

2003-08-23T23:09:00.000-07:00

cuRReNtLy bUMPiN: light your ass on fire

thursday - went over to ryan's to chill with chris. later, ashley, andy, britton and brandon show up. and eventually aw and andrew arrive. there was quite a bit of drama today, but everything eventually worked out. car tag was very interesting. it was a nice "ghetto" day haha.

friday - HAPPY BIRTHDAY JANE!! went to my brother's registration at suzanne and then i went to ryan's. chilled over there for a while and then picked up sharon. went to target and borders to pick up a few things, then back to sharon's house. went to jane's to meet up with everyone else, then off to dinner at buca di beppo, very delicious. then went back to pat's for a while. dropped off people at home and stayed at ryan's with him and chris.

today - woke up came home. watched mtv with ryan for 6 hours straight, a new record. then we went to watch "uptown girls" which was an okay movie, but luckily we didn't get to watch "freddy vs. jason" which means no nightmares for me, yay!!

tomorrow shall consist of driving school and bs-ing summer hw. so much to do, so little time ahhh!!! well time to crash, nite!

toodles! *kiss kiss*

2003-08-20T23:39:00.000-07:00

cuRReNtLy bUMPiN: free

today i went to visit the infamous a.w for some quality relaxation and down time. i met his 3 roommates, 2 of them were in their late 20's and the other was 21, i felt like a freaking youngsta! but they were all pretty cool though. so we just pretty much spent the whole day just chilling and watching movies. it was a nice lil escape from everything, although it was ironic that the one day i choose to relax, was the same day that 5 different people wanted me to go out with them. i guess i'm not a complete loser anymore! haha. "i guess you've just become more popular after you broke up with him. he was just dead weight anyways" haha funny stuff. fact of the day: boys are confusing.

yesterday was definitely one of the best conversation days that i've ever had. the bond that i share with some people is amazing! i hope that i have that great of a bond with everyone! i love you all very much!!

toodles! *kiss kiss*

2003-08-19T12:10:00.000-07:00

cuRReNtLy bUMPiN: giving up on love (... well at least for now hehe)

for the first time in a couple of months, i feel truly happy. it was like the stupidest thing too ... i was just driving home from aci while listening to my "independent" cd and all of i sudden i bust out laughing and i COULD NOT stop smiling. i guess it's cause for the first time in about a few weeks that i've actually felt lighthearted. no stress whatsoever on my heart and it feels GREAT!!! i don't need a boyfriend to provide unconditional love. i am satisfied with the way i am. besides, love from family and friends is paramount to any kind of love from a boyfriend for the time being. (p.s. i love you guys so much!!) yes, love and affection is good, but i can live without it. i'm not gonna sacrifice my personal happiness for a few moments of lust and desire. a boyfriend should be like perfume, it should enhance your personality as well as your beauty. "he" was more like the mj cologne; it had satined my belongings and i'm constantly reminded of it, but it didn't leave a permanent mark on me. no matter how bad i'm hurt or how torn apart my heart gets, i will always rise above it all. no matter how bad a person hurts me, i will always find room for forgiveness. i will always give my love to people, it's just who i am. i gotta keep moving on with life and "go with the flow." everything happens for a reason, so maybe fate has something better planned for me ...

toodles! *kiss kiss*

2003-08-18T23:03:00.000-07:00

cuRReNtLy bUMPiN: free

inn0centlilbaby: i cant believe jane thought i was mexican too!!
liD0D0PEY X24: ahhahhah!! :-P!
inn0centlilbaby: sigh, might as well start growing oranges damn it
liD0D0PEY X24: hahahah oor you coudl just sell your oranges!! at hooters! wth the ORANGE spandex! HAHHAHAHAH
^ i've got great friends

sac started it's fall classes today. there was a whole throng of people and i don't even want to get started on the traffic. let's just say that it took me 20 minutes to drive home from aci today, which i was not very fond of at all. i did see a lot of cute guys there though, too bad they're too old for me. watched the some polo guys practice while waiting for my bro's swim lesson. (his new coach's name is jt, and he's white and also pretty cute too, which i found kinda amusing.) wow polo guys have very sexy bodies, definitely WHOA. i just realized that i need 20 journals per book, which almost gave me a panic attack. man, that means i've REALLY got to start reading and writing. aw called today, it was like a breath of fresh air. he finally got some bills taken care of, so hopefully we can go out together soon! off to study vocab ...

toodles! *kiss kiss*

2003-08-17T15:26:00.000-07:00

cuRReNtLy bUMPiN: heartbreaker

thursday - went out driving with ryan, didn't get much accomplished haha. then later i met up with sharon and jane and went back to sharon's house. swam and tried to tan, wasn't too successful. then just chilled and stayed up till early morning chatting. thanks for the encouragement chick, but no i'm not interested in any of your "products"!

friday - after aci i went to alpha to wait for sharon and jane. i saw someone that looked like danny calling my name. then when he walked closer, i saw that it really was danny! wow i must be blind haha. then afterwards we went to target to chill and then got something to eat. then we drove to raging waters to meet up with helen, jiun, josh, staci, and jerry. one of the greatest accomplishments of the day was getting free parking, yay!!! the guy at the booth must've been mesmerized by sharon and jane's good looks. *note to self* must remember to do that anytime there's a parking fee : ) lots of cute lifeguards there, but then again everyone practically looked the same. a nice tanned, fit body with shades, very delicious eye candy!! then went to dinner at applebee's and some people came back to my house to chill for a while. it was a nice day : )

saturday - driving school. my driving coach is some old guy who is kinda weird, pretty cool though. spent the rest of the day hw-ing. then went to dinnner and grocery shopping with my mommie and my brother. weirdest thing - he called me when i was at target, and decides to drive all the way there just to "visit." now who in the world does that? especially after blaming me to be "too busy to even talk to him" when i'm freaking driving on the freeway. can you say SCHIZOPHRENIC?

today - aci hw and a few pages of reading, must finish book today!! then off to my cousin's house for some dinner or whatever, great.

stay cool!!
toodles! *kiss kiss*

2003-08-13T23:27:00.000-07:00

cuRReNtLy bUMPiN: so yesterday

^yesterday, i heard that song at least 5 times on the radio and on tv, like every time switched the statino or the channel. and that doesn't even include the times i've heard it when it wasn't at the beginnning. i think it's a sign. it's a pretty OBVIOUS sign. i'd better listen.

alright, better face the inevitable. must get over him, damn it! the sooner the better, so i'd better get a move on eh? it sounds so pathetic but, i guess i was far more dependent on him than i could've imagined. i find it very ironic, just like life itself. but i've got to move on, i've just got to. it's times like these that are the most troubling, but i guess it's all for a good cause because it helps to define your character and who you are. i know i'm strong, i can do this. all the trials and tribulations of life make you a stronger, wiser, and better person. i've learned not to be so "foolish" ... but can i truly say that i have changed? i can't. well not until my moment of "judgement." when that one day comes, when my will is being tested (no pun intended), it is then that i willi find out who i truly am.

on another note: i miss robert. hope to see you soon buddy. good luck with your job and everything else!!
thanks cisco for listening to my pointless ramblings! you are the bestest!!

gotta re-dye my hair ... stay the same? blonde? black?
i love my hair, but there's that whole drama that's associated with it. so maybe i want something dramatic, preferably black, just in spite ya know? still debating

toodles! *kiss kiss*

2003-08-11T19:58:00.000-07:00

cuRReNtLy bUMPiN: the scientist

life must suck when you have to support yourself, pay rent, bills, gas, school. thank goodness my mommy's gonna pay for everything till i'm out of college; yes, i guess you could say that i'm spoiled. wow i owe her A LOT. but anyways, unfortunately, my one intellectual adventure of the summer looks like it's not gonna happen, well at least probably not for a few days? no art museum tomorrow : T poor a.w, i still admire you, but you better get yourself a job man! hehe. so much reading to do, so i promised that i'd at least finish "sid" this week, and it's only my first book! oh well, nobody to blame but myself for that. man, "yellow raft" is like some 370 pages, i need to get crackin!! but i'm gonna reward myself by going to raging waters friday, yay!! gotta work on my tan, esp. on the tummy. still haven't completely given up yet!! then on sunday it's a family lunch thing or whatnot. man, gotta get my drivers training hours!! there's nothing like procrastination for motivation!!!

toodles! *kiss kiss*

2003-08-09T12:35:00.000-07:00

cuRReNtLy bUMPiN: are you happy now

things have been okay, can't complain ... too much. haven't done ANY reading for the past few days but that's okay, i need time to repair. took my bro to watch "nemo" and "swat" yesterday. while i was sitting at borders, reading to kill time, some guy almost trips over my foot. then a few seconds later, he does it again. so i was thinking "this guy must be pretty dumb to almost trip over me twice." so i look up to see who it was and it was justin!! haha that was funny, but i had a nice lil chat with him. then later when i got home, a.w finally came over and visited. he came all the way from la just for me, as well as take care of some stuff. i missed him so much, it was really nice to see him again. i have the best friends : )

toodles! *kiss kiss*

2003-08-07T19:53:00.000-07:00

cuRReNtLy bUMPiN: so yesterday

day 2 - i'm better. it still hurts, especially when it's extra lonesome. slowly, but surely i'm gonna get better : )

finally got my schedule:
0. math studies - dorn
1. english - donee
2. bio - lin
3. french - jacquot
4. renaissance - gawrych
5. econ - bosanko
6. us - landis
i originally had collins for us but renaissance was missing from my schedule, so i had to trade. yeah it's sad, but i'll get over it. just pushes me to work harder.

man, i gotta get him out of my mind!!! gotta be busy as a lil bee ... who wants to take me out???

toodles! *kiss kiss*

2003-08-06T23:42:00.000-07:00

it's over and done with.
now start's the long awaited healing process.
hopefully by the time i grow a year older and wiser, i'll be healed.
bitersweet and empty, the realization has not occurred yet, and i think it won't be anytime soon.

wish me luck.

2003-08-05T22:33:00.000-07:00

cuRReNtLy bUMPiN: cry me a river

the first step to stopping addiction is to acknowledge that you have a problem.
i have a problem.
my addiction: a boyfriend; a puerile relationship that has been prolonged for far too long.
i have taken the first step to recovery.

in other news ...
spent the day with equally strong and twin today, just a nice chill day. (sorry if your mommy was mad equally strong!) p.i.m.p remix, gotta love the way pimpsta fifty be dancin!! went to ikea later and bougt a hamper and picture frames with a little easel picture-holder. thanks for a happy day, it was just what i needed! : )

i love you mommy

toodles! *kiss kiss*

2003-08-04T20:43:00.000-07:00

excuse me for the profanity because there will be a lot used in this entry ...

who the fuck is bill davis and why are you calling my house???
so this is what happens ... the phone rings, i pick up

me: hello?
him: hi, can i speak to the parents of sandy hung?
me: who's speaking?
him: this is bill davis
me: from? (thinking that he worked for some company)
him: from bill davis.
me: and who is bill davis?
him: well why do you want to know?
me: because my mother doesn't like to speak to telemarketers and the whole lot.
him: well how about i show up there in half an hour
me: ...
*click*

what the fuck is that all about??? this just exacerbates my paranoia. i've never heard of a bill davis and how would he know my name and my number??? the only davis that i know of is the history teacher at school and our not-so-wonderful governor. i don't know any white at least 30ish year old person named freakin bill davis!! man, how the hell am i going to be able to sleep peacefully for the next few days?? ahhh!!! well at least nobody's showed up yet. but then again it's only been like 45 minutes ... i need a bodyguard, any inquiries???

2003-08-03T14:45:00.000-07:00

cuRReNtLy bUMPiN: why not

it's too hot i don't like it, a few degrees cooler would be much better. would turn on the a/c, but it gives me a headache, sucks to be me. watched "american wedding" yesterday, it was cute and funny. stiffler is hot, i'd screw him anyday, even if i was a gay guy. but the whole dog poo thing was grody. can't wait to go to raging waters and six flags. still need to tackle my list of things to do, slowly but surely damn it.

toodles! *kiss kiss*

2003-08-01T21:49:00.000-07:00

cuRReNtLy bUMPiN: so yesterday

everything's been the same. got to see a.w. for the first time in months, too bad his car broke down when he got back to la so he won't be coming around for a while. had a runny nose for a couple of days. going through another mini identity crisis. read one chapter of "siddhartha." planning to go see "gigli" even though it got horrible reviews. same old, same old. one more month till i'm legally driving, yay!!! need to dye my hair, should i make it lighter, blonder? life's just gonna get more hectic the older i become, so might as well just learn to deal with it now.

hope you're enjoying yourself!
toodles! *kiss kiss*

2003-07-29T16:04:00.000-07:00

cuRReNtLy bUMPiN: boys of summer - ataris

got my dress from vs, very sparkly : )
got the current issue of tp. the coverboy is sean williams scott, very cute, and also features ashton kutcher with a little hint of pharrell as well. not to mention, pharrell looks damn good in "frontin" as well as in "senorita", but jt is by far the sexiest. man, what i would give to bump and grind with him ; )

toodles! *kiss kiss*

2003-07-27T23:50:00.000-07:00

cuRReNtLy bUMPiN: like i love you - jt

dragon boat weekend. after seven years, this is starting to get pretty big, about 50 teams this year and some big name sponsors like nbc, viewsonic, and as well as la times starting next year. good job to wow or team whs for gettin 2nd in their division. you guys better own lowell next year!! hope all the ib-ers had some fun, thanks for your help!

i am dead tired, i need to finish my hw for aci that's due on tuesday, and i have "mid-terms" on tues, thurs, and friday, but i gotta wait till my mommie comes home before i can go to sleep, noooo!!!

src is almost over, yay!! now i can focus my life on aci and summer reading. ha who am i kidding, it's more like attempting to do those things. man, my registration isn't until the 7th. hopefully i'll get nice classes.

i am so dehydrated. laters.

toodles! *kiss kiss*

2003-07-24T23:06:00.000-07:00

cuRReNtLy bUMPiN: frontin - pharrell

i've suffered from 6 different ailments in 8 days, now that's a new record! and now, it seems that i just might be getting a cough as well!
today i got a bloody nose out of the blue when i was quizzing at aci. at least i got to skip aci 2 days in a row now, so just went home and slept. then went to school at walnut, even though drivers ed could be better spent napping.

today was a "lots of nice cars that sandy can't afford" kind of day. saw 3 rx7's and 2 nsx's. so sleek and oh so sexy. but i guess i wasn't cruisin in that bad of a ride today, i took the mustang cause my baby was getting tinted woot woot!! got the front windows 35% and the back ones 5% for only a bill. too bad it's illegal to tint your front windows or else i would've gotten it all 5%, that would've been sexy. nice and black, just the way i like it haha. well i'm proud to say that my baby doesn't look stock anymore, except for those hubcaps but most likely they'll be there for a while. all i need to do is find a guy who will voluntarily beautify my car for me : D not likely at all, but i can wish can't i? but all i need to complete my look are some sexy rims. that would be the best present of all time : ) once again not likely at all, but still dreamin.

my gt is officially part gansta now haha
toodles! *kiss kiss*

2003-07-22T22:37:00.000-07:00

cuRReNtLy bUMPiN: i love you - jt

after 2 months of being perfectly healthy, okay maybe more like being somewhat healthy, my body has finally broke down.
ear infections --> ruptured eardrum --> sore throat --> cold --> fever
... hopefully i'll get better in record breaking time, cause being sick for months at a time sucks.

i saw such a cute dress in the vs catalogue. 60% off original price, wow!! this is my the first thing that i bought with my card, yay! haha. man, my measurements are all messed up. i guess measuring is just not my thing.

improved 120 points on my sat, yay! not to mention that it was a real sat test too. it's still average, but i'm slowly but surely getting closer towards my goal.

silver or black?

toodles! *kiss kiss*

2003-07-21T19:51:00.000-07:00

cuRReNtLy bUMPiN: shake ya tailfeather - nelly, diddy, murphy lee

^shifted from sex & money, to punk & emo, and now back again to booty & bills, what a large array in musical taste hehe. oh well, whatever sounds good : )

anyways ... either my ear's getting better, or i'm just getting used to it. i think it's getting better, well hopefully. but as usual, when one thing gets better, something else goes wrong. my throat was a little uncomfy yesterday and now it has become a dry sore throat, great.

renaissance retreat was cancelled, might be rescheduled, again. didn't go to the relay 4 life cause of my ears. this weekend is dragon boat, hopefully everything will be nice and people will have fun there. i need an even tan damn it, or a somewhat even tan.

was bored so i took some "tests" on the spark
turns out that i am only 33% slutty, which is less than the average, 46%. at least i'm only 1/3 slutty. and according to the spark, jt is the 5th sexiest guy of all time heck yeah!!
and i'm only 36% bitch, which is again lower than the 38% average. good for me! : )

toodles! *kiss kiss*

2003-07-17T23:18:00.000-07:00

cuRReNtLy bUMPiN: i'd rather be in love - michelle branch

yesterday: went over to helen's where she helped sharon and i bake cupcakes. wow helen is pro at baking, i need to learn from her, my attempts are pathetic. then went back to sharon's to bake more. "does that look like 1/4 cup to you? why do they look like muffins?" no more late night baking for me.

today: brought our cupcake masterpieces to school. watched "philadelphia" in class, it's sad how people were discriminated for thier sexual preference and having aids, and it's probably still going on today. discrimination is bad for the heart. after school i went to the doctors. first my doctor very casually told me "i think you busted your eardrum" which almost gave me like a nervous breakdown. then i asked if it was serious and he said "i'm not sure," and that wasn't of much help either. but i think i have a ruptured eardrum which will hopefully repair itself, and soon. and i also have an infection in my other ear, i'm just broken all over. but it bugs because my ear feels like it's plugged, like what you would feel when there's a change in elevation, and whenever i eat something the sound of the chewing is rather loud and obnoxious. not to mention the earaches, headaches, and itchiness. ahhh!!!

oh yeah yesterday willie and ryan went to speedzone and saw chris pontius aka partyboy from "jackass" celebrating his bday with some of his crew. he got a few picutres with him and also got me an autograph, he writes like a 8 year old haha. too bad steve-o wasn't there, he's still cute despite his senseless stunts.

toodles! *kiss kiss*

2003-07-16T18:53:00.000-07:00

cuRReNtLy bUMPiN: rock with you - ashanti

went swimming mon. and tues. at ryan's with the usuals and attempted to even out my skin tone, so far i'm not very successful, only very minor changes. my lil brother started taking swim lessons this week, i'd have to admit that his instructor's pretty cute haha. i have so many lil spots of "new" skin because of my scabs, it looks so strange cause it's freakin white as crap, how am i supposed to tan the spots?? i give up, i will never be able to achieve a full body tan, oh well. renaissance retreat is cancelled so that means i will be going to the arcadia relay for life. hmmm what else, i've dropped on sats, i think i got lucky that one time cause i took the test at home where i was comfy. man i wish i had a job. i want to get my touchup done for my hair, possibly get a digital camera, and somewhat fix up my car. yeah it might be considered foolish to invest a lot of money into my car, but at the same time, i don't want to be stock. but being the broke teenager i am, where would i even get the money for mods. so i guess i would just have to settle for doing a little here and there. or i could just get someone to sponsor me and pay for everything : D but i haven't met anybody that wonderful, yet. but number one on the to do list for my baby gt is to get it tinted!! and get a s2k atenna as well, right now it looks like a lil rc hehe.

toodles! *kiss kiss*

2003-07-13T19:12:00.000-07:00

Do you know my ABCs?

A - Act your age? i usually act older or younger than my age, but hardly ever do i seem 15

B - Born on what day of the week? saturday, around noon, no wonder i usually wake up around then

C - Chores you hate? none that i dislike more than any other

D - Dad's name? chung jung

E - Essential makeup item? foundation or lip gloss

F - Favorite actor/actress? orlando bloom and johnny depp, strongly influenced by "pirates" as you can see

G - Gold or silver? platinum

H - Hometown? walnut, ca ... home of eddie winslow from family matters and alice the lakergirl

I - Instruments you play? flute and tuba

J - Job title? n/a

K - Kind of sports you play? none, but i like to swim occasionally

L - Last song listened to? she cries - rufio

M - Main thing you look for in a member of the opposite sex? cuteness factor

N - Number of people you've slept with? zero

O - Overnight hospital stays? none

P - Phobias? fear of loneliness, abandonment, dying alone, etc.

Q - Quote you like? life is what happens to you while you're busy making other plans - john lennon

R - Religion? no official religion, but i do believe that there is some sort of a god

S - Stores you shop at? target, costco, and those girly clothes stores

T - Time you wake up? 630 if there's school

U - Unique habit? i have a weird tendency to unconsciously fold any kind of paper that i hold in my hands

V - Vegetable you refuse to eat? asparagus and other chinese vegetables, gross

W - Worst habit? taking daily naps, relaxing but it's like wasting time

X - X-rays you've had? only teeth xrays

Y - Yummy food you make? hamburger helper

Z - Zodiac Sign? virgo

2003-07-13T15:11:00.000-07:00

cuRReNtLy bUMPiN: frontin - pharrell

ehhh i've been feeling better since thursday. figured that everything is corrupt and nothing will ever change that, so better suck it up and deal with it. for the past 3 days i've been sleeping at least 12 hours a day. my daily schedule has consisted of this: wake up, eat, sleep, watch tv, sleep, eat, sleep, more tv, sleep. i can't hlep doing anything else because whenever i wake up, i feel as tired as i did before i fell asleep. physically, i'm slowly getting back to normal? bruises are slowly going away. still have a big bruise on my thigh. throat still hurts. back and shoulders are freakin sore. have a whole packet full of aci hw to do. need to read 3 books and do journals. french packet. only good news is that ... i got a 4 on my ap test!!! and i did like average on it too, and my concluding paragraph for one of the essays was 2 sentences long, score!!! i could've gotten a 5 if i actually put effort into studying but oh well, i earned a 4, i'm content. hopefully that means that my grade will be changed to 2 a's, which will improve my gpa. it better damn it ... and i also managed to watch "pirates" on friday. first time going to the movies in my pjs haha, but it was just at regals so yeah. orlando bloom is sooo hot! and johnny depp wasn't that bad either, although he did act a lil gay. but they're both so cute! okay that's that.

toodles! *kiss kiss*

2003-07-10T23:16:00.000-07:00

cuRReNtLy bUMPiN: fighter - xtina

today has been the longest day in forever, and yet despise all the drama and bullshit, i still have to go to aci tomorrow. well i offically declare that candy hung is a fucking selfish bitch : ) justice will be served one day and she will get what she deserves. in other news: eric chen (owner of a black 2dr civic, graduate of wilson c/o 02), you've been used; she labelled you her bitch. move on with your life. i can't believe you associate with scum of the earth like her, the lowest of the low. i can't believe you've willingly spent some 2 years with her. i on the other hand have suffered for almost 16 years now, and i envy you for not being blood related to her and also for having the choice of not seeing associating with her, which i personally see as you abusing your freedom of choice.

cops are corrupted
our laws are corrupted
our government is corrupted
our country is corrupted
everything is corrupted!!!
"with liberty and justice for all"
there is no such thing as justice anymore
and i strongly urge you to prove me right

everyone gets what they deserve, i hope she fucking gets what she fucking deserves. and of course i'll get whatever i deserve as well.

one (semi)positive note: at least i won't be here to see the end of our society as a result of the corruption and greed of mankind : )

and that's how the cookie crumbles
toodles! *kiss kiss*

p.s. thanks twin for letting me vent!

2003-07-09T22:18:00.000-07:00

cURReNtLy bUMPiN: can't hold us down - xtina f. lil kim

things have been decent. "eh can't complain." : )

i scored 90 points higher on my sat this week. mostly improved on math. i think the secret was taking the test in the comforts of my own home and not in confined in those 4 blank walls. so i am one baby step closer to reaching my goal.

i finally finished book 5 of harry potter. it was a great book, can't wait till the next one. he didn't deserve to die. hopefully harry won't be such an asshole like he was in the beginning of this book, but chances are he probably will be because of the death. i recognized a handful of sat words in the book, i guess memorizing those 200 words a week does come in handy at times, at rare times.

i receive the weirdest phone calls. yesterday some asian lady would not take "no" for an answer when i told her that i wasn't the person she was calling for. then just now some weird girl called, but it there was only music playing for 10 sec when i first picked up. and a few days ago a telemarketer hung up on me after i told her that my parents weren't home, 2nd time that's ever happened. does my voice sound that hideous?

i'm dreading the results of my ap test. i'm too lazy to call them and decided that it's much easier to just face my failure eye to eye. i liked the quote kim said in class today: if you want to know the value of one year ... than ask an ap student ... etc. i've definitely realized that, whether or not i pass ... but most likely didn't pass. speaking of kim, src is probably my favorite class besides band, KIDDING!!! kim's pretty cool because he makes an effort to make learning an enjoyable experience. debating is fun, and so is talking about social issues. as cheesy as it sounds, i'm inspired by the class ... yeah go ahead and laugh.

results of the ib tests are back. my sister has been gloating becase of the fact that she received a 38, which was higher than eric loh's 37. everyone in collins's history hl has gotten 6s or 7s. i pray that i get collins next year, if not, i know i will be suffering miserably. i'm sure landis is a great guy and all, but i still prefer collins. stupid registration date, grrr.

still need to read the 3 books and do the journals. i need to get a move on.

have a nice day! : )
toodles! *kiss kiss*

2003-07-07T18:10:00.000-07:00

busy weekend.

thursday - dragged my lil brother out to run errands with me, that boy spends way too much time locked in his room playing starcraft or whatever. but at least he was rewarded by watching t3. it was pretty good. lots of action and destruction. nick stahl, john connor, is pretty cute, and i'd have to admit that the evil robot girl was pretty as well. arnold is hilarious, "talk to the hand!"

friday - a whole minivan full of us went down to chinatown and got a whole bunch of fireworks. even though it was hot as heck, the prices were great. gotta go back again to shop sometime. so basically we just chilled at andy's for the rest of the night. 4 whole hours of playing with fireworks and there was still a box full of bottle rockets to spare.

saturday - errands again. willie, andrew, and i went to watch "legally blonde." it was a pretty cute movie. the world needs more people like elle woods haha. she's an "imspiration" to me.

sunday - went shopping with mommie and andrew at target for 2 whole hours, we were killing time before a family dinner. and just as we loaded everything into my car, i tried to start it, but it wouldn't work and gas was leaking all over the place, ahhh!!! thank goodness some lady ran up to the car just before i was going to try to start it again. so, my sister came and took my mom and brother to the restaurant, with me waiting for the tow truck by myself. after 45 mins of waiting, and being hit on by a yukon-full of hispanics, the tow truck finally arrived and luckily willie did too and took me to dinner. my poor babye! : (

today - picked up lunch for me and andrew, that boy eats so much but yet he's so skinny grrr. but yeah, called the dealer to see if my car was ready and it was, whoo hoo!!! turns out that it was their fault because when i was there 2 weeks ago for them to check up on fuel line and tank, they probably weren't very cautious and left something loose, which resulted in a leak. but thank goodness my baby is okay. i need to name it, any suggestions?

well off to do aci hw as usual. how i dislike that place with a passion ...

toodles! *kiss kiss*

2003-07-04T11:12:00.000-07:00

happy independence day!!

been busy as a lil worker bee lately.

aci - a whole bunch of hw this week, 140 vocab words ahhh!!! and on top of that, we gotta do testing during the weekend, but at least we got today off : ) i need to improve!!!

src is cool, we're actually learning about stuff that interests me. i feel so eager to learn all the "self awareness" stuff, yeah i'm a n.e.r.d.

there was supposed to be a renaissance retreat thing next weekend, but i haven't heard any updates on that.

two weeks from now will be dragon boat, another 2 days in the hot sun. i think i'll volunteer at the docks just so i can get rid of these funky tan lines i have.

today my mommie is gonna take my brother and i to chinatown to buy some fireworks. and it was her that suggested it too. i love my mommie, she's may be crazy but she's the best : )

toodles! *kiss kiss*

2003-07-02T21:48:00.000-07:00

it's such a shame but i'm leaving
can't take the way you're mistreating me
and it's crazy, but oh baby
it don't matter, whatever don't phase me

all my pride is all i have

... still waiting for the day it'll turn into reality

2003-06-30T21:15:00.000-07:00

so what am i not supposed to have an opinion
should i be quiet just because i'm a woman
call me a bitch cause i speak what's on my mind
guess it's easier for you to swallow if i sat and smiled

but you're just a little boy
think you're so cute, so coy
you must talk so big
to make up for small lil' things
so you're just a little boy
all you'll do is annoy
you must talk so big
to make up for small lil' things

charlie's angels full throttle was a fun movie. makes me want to be an angel.
went to the relay 4 life from saturday to sunday, 24 whole hours at school. it was fun, but hot. then it was really cold at night and i ended up with a runny nose and a sore throat. so i ended up not walking a lot cause i didn't want my cold to get worse and be sick for a month and etc. i feel really bad, but i'll make it up next year.
2 years, had dinner at olive garden, yummy.
it's nice to help people, but i have to realize that not everyone needs my help.
oh yeah, i did it : )

toodles! *kiss kiss*

2003-06-26T23:36:00.000-07:00

people killin, people dyin
children hurt and you hear them cryin
can you practice what you preach
and would you turn the other cheek
father, father, father help us
send us some guidance from above
cause people got me, got me questionin
where is the love

black eyed peas are pretty good live, they've got this great infectious energy. very funkalicious.

the world needs love. there's not enough loving or caring people in the world.
new idea: "if you are nice to the world, then the world will be nice to you."
i will try this new theory out the next couple of days or so, to see if it will work or not.
lifetime goal: to be a better person today than the day before.

another dilemma in my life, well actually it's the same one that's been occurring the past two years of my life, and you'd think that i'd have it all settled by now. i need to solve this soon, because it always takes my focus off of the most important things and pretty much overwhelms me.

there are some people that i've lost contact with. it's like one day we're talking fine, and the next all i get is a cold shoulder. should make some kind of an initiative to try talking again? i guess i should, and if i get shot down, then that's that. reconcile.

2003-06-25T12:31:00.000-07:00

today when i woke up, i discovered that 2 of my dogs had turned black cause of the ashes and stuff ... quite hilarious but giving them a bath will be very annoying ... another windy day with more crap getting in my eyes ... euro: c+, english: most likely b, chem: c, french: a ... man, i've got a lot of work to do ... especially for euro ... mommie called around 6 saying that she got rear ended on the 210 ... she was okay but the car, 89 mercedes, was totalled ... boy she's gonna have a tough time explaining this one to my grandpa, since it was his car ... ironic how just the other day they were talking on the phone and he said 'dont let sandy drive the mercedes since candy already crashed it twice' ... man, if only we already had our other car back from the shop (where it has been for almost two months now) my mommie would've totalled that one instead of the mercedes ... sigh, poor mommie, she's car-less at the moment ... man, sucks to be her ...

2003-06-24T20:56:00.000-07:00

warm october nights
you came and cuddled next to me
our noses brushed so close
i wished it was our souls
drifting off to sleep
i could hear the little snores you made
watching eyes shut tight
like doors to something sweeter where you rest

grrr!!!
... just a little stressed out : )

aci is just ... great. i'd much rather be at alpha with everyone else from walnut, but then again i know that i won't get any work done whatsoever. so maybe aci is the (threat of) discipline i need. first off, i got a 1120 on my first test, horrible. then i overhear some guy saying "man i only got a 1450??? i wanted a 1500." that definitely boosted my self esteem. i felt like a complete idiot, but then again i looked on the rankings and saw myself on the 2nd of 3 pages, about average. so i didn't feel too bad about myself, at least i got higher than a 800.

then there's the people in my class ... this one guy who's a freshman had already taken the course two times before!!! what is that??? but yeah. there's two other people from walnut, but i've never seen them before in my life. everyone is pretty much "...", i think i'm too "wild" for them, if not, i'm definitely not as "asian" as them. i feel so inferior. my teacher today was pretty cool. his name's mr. quandt, and he subs at walnut occasionally. he's white, young, has a quiet voice, a lil on the preppy side, but a good teacher. he was making all these jokes under his breath today and i was the only one that laughed at them. everyone else was just "...", they're so freakin dull!!

then on my way to walnut for 2nd period src, there was only 1 lane open on golden springs which made me stress out real bad. i had the worst case of road rage today. man, i am too young to be stressing! ended up being late for class, but whatevers, kim didn't take roll yet. he's a pretty cool teacher as well. src seems like it'll be pretty kickback, which is good. the class is freakin packed, but oh well.

15 - 20 CAS HOURS!!!
who: ib-ers and anyone else
what: volunteering at the dragon boat festival
where: long beach marine stadium
when: july 26/27, 8am to late afternoon
why: cause it's 15-20 hrs!!!
how: contacting me
* i need your name by wed. night if you want your name in the program
* everyone that wants to participate must sign up with me by the 25th

toodles! *kiss kiss*

2003-06-23T21:52:00.000-07:00

it feels like something's heating up, can i leave with you?
i don't know what i'm thinking bout, really leaving with you

my favorite song has now been released as a single: yay and boo. now everyone's gonna be bumpin it and kiis fm will probably burn it out within a month. but it's cool with me, i don't think i'll ever get sick of jt : )

man, i want to be sixteen. i feel the need to party, must find a DECENT underage club this summer.

affirmative action

toodles! *kiss kiss*

2003-06-22T22:25:00.000-07:00

you're graceful, your grace falls
down around me in my eyes
you're lovely, your love leaves
so easily in my eyes

first and foremost, "the hulk" was a complete waste of my 7 bucks and my 2 1/2 hours. too much hype surrounding the whole thing. the graphics were good, but the movie just took too long and was as boring as hell. my personal opinion: don't see it.

other news...
school is over, yes that's a little late but whatevers. we're juniors, yay!! too bad i'm in ib though, grrr. when i went to graduation so many realizations occurred. my sister's finally graduating, and she's gonna move out, yay!! but then again she's only going to la so she'll probably be home on the weekends and all. my 30-something year old uncle finally graduated from ucla and now has a phd. my other cousin graduated hs too, #4 of his class, and will also be attending la. pretty much everyone in my family has been to la at some point during their educational career. so, if i don't at least get accepted into la, my life as i know it will be over; i'll officially be disowned from my family. no pressure at all.

gonna start sat school tomorrow, m-f for the whole entire summer. it costs a whole grip load of money, so i gotta make it worth while. summer school starts tuesday and i'll be taking src, no biggie. and on top of that i'll be needing to do my cas hours. and then there's 3 books for summer reading and also french packet. will i find room to have fun??? i sure hope so.

toodles! *kiss kiss*

2003-06-21T13:53:00.000-07:00

JT CAN ROCK MY BODY ALL NIGHT LONG!!!

justified and stripped was like WHOA! especially my sexy boy JT!!! xtina had crazy good vocals, but JT was just more entertaining. that whole 10 mins or so of beatboxin was CRAZY. i had pretty good seats, the stage was on one side and i was sitting on the other side, on the FLOOR!!! woot woot haha. there was such a club flavor to the concert and i was shakin my ass the whole time. everyone around me were freakin dull as hell. pharrell wasnt there : ( but pamela anderson was. she was onstage during 'lady marmalade' dressed in a stripper outfit dancing on the piano. she walked past where i was sitting like 4 times or so and from 5 feet away, she has the biggest boobs i'd ever seen!! that one guy stripping during xtina's show was HOT!! lols. but yeah that's basically it. as much as i was infatuated with jt before, i am even more infatuated with him now. so sexy!! he's like my perfect dream guy you know? or so he seems to be. and he looks so damn goood when he plays guitar. if human cloning was legal, i'd definetely clone him!!

toodles! *kiss kiss*

2003-06-20T13:15:00.000-07:00

so much to talk about, not enough time!! but ...

jt and xtina concert tonight!!!

... and also sharon, tiffanie, and christi's party
so have fun all you people that are going!

see ya!

toodles! *kiss kiss*

2003-06-18T22:57:00.000-07:00

a dream is a wish your heart makes
when you're fast asleep
in dreams you will lose your heartaches
whatever you wish for you keep
have faith in your dreams and someday
your rainbow will come smiling through
no matter how your heart is grieving
if you keep on believing
the dream that you wish will come true

2 MORE DAYS!!!

school's almost over but i guess it's still not a reality to me. maybe it's cause there's gonna be summer school and sat school, which is easier than regular school, but still school. then there's those freakin cas hours for ib and all. hopefully i'll be done with at least 50 this summer, score.

any ib people interested in earning 20ish cas hours, or possibly more, by helping out at the dragon boat festival during the last weekend of july??? contact me and i will hook you up personally ; )

toodles! *kiss kiss*

2003-06-16T21:11:00.000-07:00

my love is like ... wo
my kiss is like ... wo
my touch is like ... wo
my sex is like ... wo
my ass is like ... wo
my body's like ... wo
and you're kissin it
so what you think of it

4 MORE DAYS!!!

the burn mark on my neck has turned into a big, fat scab which bugs like crazy, grrr!! but yeah, today was long but chill.
1st: finished my pathetic lil "all about me." this class was a waste of my life, but at least it's an easy A
2nd: had a major headache for some part of the period, just signed yearbooks.
3rd: did worksheets during class since we had a sub. jo is the bestest!! thanks so much! luv ya chicka!
4th: last debating group went, then watched our "caesar" video which turned out great! too bad nobody understood the "forehead" thing. but overall it was a great success, especially with mike and his speedos, very sexy ; )
5h: since braviroff won't be hear the rest of the week/year, we just chilled, signed yearbooks and all that other good stuff.
6th: home sweet home!!

i am who i am, and i accept that.
and by saying that, i am so incredibly happy : )

and thanks to sharon for telling me that i made renaissance, i was thinking "why are you saying congrats to me when you're the one that moved to a new house??" lol, luv ya too chicka! our month is over!

today was a great day

toodles! *kiss kiss*

2003-06-15T23:08:00.000-07:00

5 MORE DAYS TILL JT!!!

and i wonder
if everything could ever feel this real forever
if anything could ever be this good again
the only thing i'll ever ask of you
you've got to promise not to stop when i say when

devoted the whole entire weekend to the english project. very entertaining weekend, definitely the best project of the year thanks to brian and all his high-tech stuff. tommy sure is funny.

i want to learn how to play guitar one day. and maybe one day i can even date a guy who plays guitar, that would be great. not likely, but would be great.

finals coming up. the only final that i have that technically matters is chem. but then again i don't know jack shit in chem. all i want is some sort b in that class. so i guess i'll attempt to study. but then again we're gonna have a substitue for the remaining 4 days, so yeah...

toodles! *kiss kiss*

2003-06-14T12:48:00.000-07:00

just got done washing my car, now it's sexy :D

still cocky, but overall a pretty nice guy. told me what i needed to know. the truth does hurt. had a chance, but it just didn't work out. i guess it's not meant to be.

today: gotta go back and work on the shakespeare project, then go to yearbook signing, then back again. being in a group with six boys is ... very interesting. too much testosterone for me. at least it's somewhat entertaining ...

today's another day :)
toodles! *kiss kiss*

2003-06-12T19:58:00.000-07:00

after all of the fights and the lies
yes you wanted to harm me but that won't work anymore
no more, it's over
cause if it wasn't for all of your torture
i wouldn't know how to be this way now, and never back down
so I wanna say thank you

21 days and it's now over : D

accidentally burned my neck with my curling iron. my nose still hurts and i have yet to remember what actually happened. had my oral final for french, did decent i guess. also had my debate today, did pretty good. root actually shook my hand and said i did a good job, yay praise! haha it definetly boosted my self-esteem for today. went after school to help out with graduation tickets but apparently they didn't need my help. i feel so useless sometimes. but overall it was a decent day.

toodles! *kiss kiss*

2003-06-12T00:12:00.000-07:00

whoa!
once again i am blogging instead of doing my hw, but this time there's a good reason ... well not really but sure

i realize it, i accept it, i admit it: i have a problem. i am way too dependent on other people for certain things. my goal is to become more independent and take control of my life.

still confused with this whole "love" concept, but then again that's probably one of the reasons for living, which means i've got a lot to learn. i still believe that there is one person in the world that is meant for me. and i believe that fairytale romances only come once in a lifetime, and i am still waiting for mine. "good things come to those who wait." still have the dilemma of whether or not i should give all my heart and self to someone right now, could i trust them? but you have to trust them, because if you don't, then what kind of a relationship would you have? unfortunately i think that from now on i'm going to put some sort of a barrier up, just in case. i want to love and be loved, and not be hurt. impossible, well at least for now. of all the guys in the world, it seems like i fall for the wrong ones. i need help picking the "right" guy to fall for, ha what a joke. i don't ask for much, just someone who is honest and caring. wait, i guess it might be asking for a little too much, sigh. i think i'll be taking a break from love for the time being, tired of trying and getting nowhere. i put so much effort in hopes of making some difference, but apparently nothing changed. i'd rather spend my time and energy into doing something with positive results. another life lesson lived and learned.

and i did. i really, truly did.

... patiently waiting ...
toodles! *kiss kiss*

2003-06-09T22:54:00.000-07:00

if you want me
don't play games
i promise
it won't be in vain
follow your heart
your intuition
it will lead you in the right direction
let go of your mind
your intuition
it's easy to find
just follow your heart baby

Outgoing, accepting, friendly, enjoy everything and make things more fun for others by their enjoyment. Like action and making things happen. Know what's going on and join in eargerly. Find remembering facts easier than mastering theories. Are best in situations that need sound common sense and practical ability with people.

according to the iq test on fox, my iq would be 120 if i were between the ages of 18-34

tooldes! *kiss kiss*

2003-06-08T23:11:00.000-07:00

took my lil bro to watch '2f2f' on friday at edwards and they had this lil 'car show' there. saw a very nice celica with a wide body kit, makes me want one too. too bad i don't have money that i can invest into my car. i guess it'll just have to stay stock for now until i get a job, or until i get a rich boyfriend : P haha. the cars were very sexy. skyline was gorgeous, *drool*

yesterday i met up with sharon at the mall. we watched 'finding nemo' and '2f2f', yeah i watched it again but paul walker's really hot so it was definetly worth it. but it really bothered me when he said "forget about it cuh." but i guess i can forgive him cause he's cute and all... then we got his present and headed down to his party. pretty fun. too bad more people didn't dance though. makes me wanna go clubbin.

i reached my goal in 2 weeks, go me! : )
i guess some things are just meant to be and some things aren't.
it's a shame though actually, but all things happen for a reason and now it's time to move on.
people could be so rude sometimes, how mean.

well tomorrow's another day : )
toodles! *kiss kiss*

2003-06-04T22:37:00.000-07:00

today sucked. party, concert. concert, party. can you say dilemma?
must make a decision within 9 days, help!
... man i am such a loser.
i always go for the wrong guys, ahhhh!!!
congrats to the new officers!
some people are just very bitter. they should accept things for the way they are. and it'd be better if they kept all their negativity to themselves, nobody else wants to hear you whine.
i am craving for a pretzel.
compliments are nice, i will do my best to brighten up other people's days.
life is just. everything happens for a reason.

toodles! *kiss kiss*

2003-06-02T21:00:00.000-07:00

... one of the scariest days of my life ...

2003-06-01T18:14:00.000-07:00

the last week seemed sooo long despite the fact that it was only a 4-day school week and all. what seemed like a really crappy week was followed by a pretty good weekend.

watched 'finding nemo' on friday, it is one of the cutest movies that i've ever seen!!! it's even cuter than monsters inc! sea turtles are the coolest hehe.

yesterday i went to six flags for the very FIRST time in my life (my childhood was very sheltered) with willie and ryan. it was hella packed so we only got to go on 3 rides: riddler's revenge, scream, and X. riddler's was okay and scream was pretty good. but X was like whoa!!! it's THE best ride that i've ever been on. it was totally worth the 4 hour wait which was spent playing hot hands, learning how to salsa, and chatting with others in line. thank goodness the people around us were entertaining haha. the ride was the most exciting thing i've ever experienced. someone commented that it was 'almost as good as sex' lol, i'll keep that in mind. everything about it was INSANE, especially the 1st drop which is some 89 degrees or whatever. can't wait to go back again. i am definetly getting myself a season pass.

i had some nice but weird dreams today. the first dream was really sweet, the ones that make you go 'awww' hehe. then the 2nd dream i dreamt that i told someone about my first dream and it was like a dream within a dream, weird. but yeah, such a shame that dreams are just dreams.

toodles! *kiss kiss*

2003-05-29T22:03:00.000-07:00

life is what happens when you're busy making other plans.

there are ups and there are downs.
this is definitely a down. this low is by far up on the top of my list with all the other lows of my life.
my life has a funny way of regulating itself.
sometimes i have everything that i could ever want.
sometimes i have nothing while everything else is beating me into the ground.
but why must these fluctuations be so drastic? i'd rather have more mild fluctuations than this madness.
well, just gotta deal with it. oooh i wanna watch 'how to deal.' who knows, could be 'inspirational'
everything happens for a reason; i am searching for the reason.
looking for inspiration, cause, awakening, motivation, self-worth.
perhaps i should pray more.

take care
toodles! *kiss kiss*

2003-05-28T23:07:00.000-07:00

another drama filled day.
"walk away" ... well more like run away.
can't i just live a simple life? no i can't.

toodles! *kiss kiss*

2003-05-28T10:17:00.000-07:00

i have an identity crisis, again.
makes me think and question everything again.
in enrichment ...

maybe i shouldn't be so naive and listen to everything that i hear.
i guess now i have to "see it to believe it."
why can't people be real? or at least try to be.
i'm real, well as real as i can be.
i'm honest and truthful, right?
i need to find out who i am.
but for the time being ... im gonna bust a patrick star and live under a rock.
i don't need drama and dilemma in my life, it's dragging me down.
i just need to be free, and find happiness..

class is over!
toodles! *kiss kiss*

2003-05-27T23:26:00.000-07:00

... ouch ...

cause it makes me that much stronger
makes me work a little bit harder
it makes me that much wiser
so thanks for making me a fighter
made me learn a little bit faster
made my skin a little bit thicker
makes me that much smarter
so thanks for making me a fighter

2003-05-27T22:24:00.000-07:00

#329

went jogging for 10 mins today woot woot! haha. it's pathetic, i know, but it's a start for someone as lazy as me.

it would be cool to date a rock star. a nice, rich, cute, and loyal rockstar ... haha what a joke!

i just want a guy that's sweet, considerate, decent looking, smells nice, and honest.
okay maybe that's asking for too much, so: nice, decent looking, and honest.
that's still asking for a lot, but i have faith that one day i'll find a guy like that.
but for now i gotta do the one-month thing, grrr!

... patiently waiting ...
toodles! *kiss kiss*

2003-05-26T21:53:00.000-07:00

woke up late this morning, got ready and went to eat lunch with sharon at chili's over at her ghetto boonie plaza. the wait was FOREVER to get our food. but yeah. i seriously couldn't drive today, accidentally went the wrong way twice. then a chp passed me up when i was doin 75ish (traffic speed) on the freeway and i got all freaked out cause i thought he was gonna pull me over, phew! someone up there loves me : ) "why do you want a fat guy?" lol. anyways, was gonna drop sharon off at alpha when helen calls to say it's closed and then we see her right in front of us! funny stuff. then helen hopped in w. us and we headed to the mall. shopped for a while at old navy, "pull what??" lol. then watched "down with love." it was a decent movie, kinda strange at some parts, kinda funnie, kinda scary cause of the 'stalker' thing, etc. lots of puns and sex jokes lol. ewan mcgregor was cute and i wouldn't mind having him as a husband : ) "i need a rich boyfriend"

but yeah ...
- i want to be free and independent. i do not want to be held back by any one person or thing. just let me be.
- some famous people look scary without makeup like christina aguilera and pamela anderson ... *shudders*
- jt is hot. so is josh hartnett. and paul walker. and jboog. and pharrell. the list goes on ... it would be great to go out with someone famous, and hot haha ...
- some people should just shut up

toodles! *kiss kiss*

2003-05-25T14:31:00.000-07:00

hello hello! showers are nice, they always brighten up my day : )

friday - chilled at om. played pool for a while then went shopped for only a lil bit. got 2 pairs of shades for 10 bucks, a pair of xoxo pants, shorts from anchor blue, and a lei to decorate my car : ) then went to eat at pat oscar's, that place rivals olive garden for the best breadsticks. but the pasta totally sucked.

yesterday - basically took a nap the whole day cause of the gloomy weather. then went to west co to eat coldstone's (deloicious!) and watch 'bruce almighty.' the 1st half of the movie was hilarious, and the 2nd half was more serious. way TOO simliar to my life, i can't believe i shedded some tears.

so that was it. song of the moment: dilemma.

toodles! *kiss kiss*

2003-05-22T21:56:00.000-07:00

won't you come over / you know that you want to / how does it feel to know i still want you / why do we always seem to want what we can't have / lessons learned / but then i listen to my heart and it says still run back for more / i'm happy for you / i'm sure that he really loves you / but it breaks my heart to know i can't hold you / it's just hard to think i'll never get the chance / to say you're mine / but everytime you hear this song / you'll know you've made a mark / on my heart and my mind

2003-05-22T08:44:00.000-07:00

here i am at school in 1st, 'computer keyboarding for idiots.' finished all the assignments as usual with nothing else to do. i should've just came to school at 2nd, or even 3rd. to think that i could've been sleeping right now, oh well.

i've been so stressed out lately, it sucks. found 3 strands of white hair the other day, that sucks too. haven't been able to concentrate on anything the past month. i think i just need to be free. i don't want to worry about anyone else. if this keeps up, he's gonna make me have a mental breakdown, which i do not want.

class is over!

toodles! *kiss kiss*

2003-05-21T21:30:00.000-07:00

it shouldn't hurt to be free
... damn it!

but yeah ... wasted my day as usual
i'm thinking of a nine-letter word that starts with a p and ends with a c: p-------c
it's an adjective which is often times used to describe a stalker.
it can be used to describe someone who does not understand the meaning of "no" after four consecutive hours of being told so.
it is the one reason why my hair is turning white.

wanted: bodyguard. pays food instead of money.
help!

toodles! *kiss kiss*

2003-05-20T23:10:00.000-07:00

today was a decent day. went swimming. i've realized that i spend a lot of time on the computer. i am too materialistic. i need to do like community service or something, anything that would be good for the soul.

couple of lines from the latest soundtrack to my life:
it shouldn't hurt me to be free
it's what i really need
to pull myself together
but if it's so good being free
would you mind telling me
why i don't know what to do with myself

and another:
i can't take it
what am i waiting for?
my heart's still breaking
i miss you even more
and i can't fake it
the way i could before
i hate you but i love you
i can't stop thinking of you
it's true
i'm stuck on you

i need to step it up on sat testing ... psat i got a 1190 and practice psat i got a 1050, horrific scores. so i'm planning on going to aci 5 days a week in the summer. it'll be hell, but necessary hell to achieve my ultimate goal: to get accepted to ucla. all of my cousins and relatives have been to ucla. now my other cousin who graduated #4 of his class and my sister are both going there as well. so if i don't get into la, my family will probably (un)officially disown me. besides, i do want to make my mom proud. i don't want my relatives to think that i'm a freakin dumbass.

took one of those lil quizzes again:
You have a great deal of care for others and are very romantic. However, you get attached to people very easily and may become too dependent. Others know you for your unending love and compassion.
... so true ...

sweet dreams!

toodles! *kiss kiss*

2003-05-19T19:42:00.000-07:00

just woke up from a 2 hr nap and things are great!

if my so-called "friend" doesn't believe what i say, then why the hell are you my friend? what kind of friend do you think i would freakin be to lie to you? how could you be my friend if you don't even know what kind of person i am? you'd actually think i would lie to you??? bullshit, you disgust me ...

toodles! *kiss kiss*

2003-05-18T13:41:00.000-07:00

yesterday was one of the most traumatic days of my life. i was lost at long beach for an hour and a half because of 4 idiot policemen who gave me the wrong directions, another policeman who passed me by in his patrol car after me waving my arms around in attempts to get his attention, the 2 damn city buses that passed me by, and some lady who gave me wrong directions as well. and for that whole hour and a half i was hit on by people driving on the streets: 2 transvestites, an old guy, 2 ghetto hispanics. and a whole bunch of people were asking if i came from the gay pride festival. if i was dressed up in prom attire, what in hell would make someone think that i came from the damn gay pride festival. not that i have anything against gay people, but some people were just idiots, sigh. all the rides that i could've gotten to the aquarium left without me, and all the rides that i didn't want to take, i could've. damn irony. especially since there was a really, really cute white guy who asked me if i wanted a ride, but i declined. damn it, he was freakin hot and i wouldn't have mind going home with him hehe. so by the time i finally arrived at the aquarium it was 9, and everyone was already there, so it was basically a waste of me going there. and i didn't enjoy myself much either, probably cause of all the crap i dealt with just to get there. so i just basically walked around to look at the exhibits, sea turtles are so cute hehe, then i went home. what a great way to spend a day huh.

toodles! *kiss kiss*

2003-05-17T12:36:00.000-07:00

i'm officially boycotting any type of romantic relationships ... for the time being. guys suck. i'm slowly but surely becoming more dependent on myself for things.

everyone in the world is crazy. some more than others. i've had more than enough of my share of psychotic people. just leave me alone you stalker.

prom is today. too bad all this bullshit happened in the past month or else i could've been actually attended prom instead of just helping out. oh well, that's how life is, just gotta deal with it.

2003-05-15T18:48:00.000-07:00

okay i've got it all figured out. no more boys, well at least for a while. why? because the majority of them are insensitive, selfish lil bastards, that's why : )
yeah and on top of that my self esteem has been really low cause of some personal issues. dilemma. identity crisis. and because of those problems, i haven't been feeling too good physically, sigh.

i can't get out of bed today
or get you off my mind
i just can't seem to find a way
to leave the love behind

i ain't trippin
i'm just missing you
you know what i'm saying
you know what i mean

you kept me hanging on a string
while you make me cry
i tried to give you everything
but you just gave lies

every now and then
when i'm all alone
i've been wishing you would call me on the telephone
say you want me back
but you never do
i feel like such a fool
there's nothing i can do
i'm such a fool
for you

i can't take it
what am i waiting for
my heart's still breaking
i miss you even more
and i can't fake it
the way i could before
i hate you but i love you
i can't stop thinking of you
it's true
i'm stuck on you

now my love's a broken record that's
been skipping in my head
i keep singing yesterday
why we've got to play these games we play?

toodles! *kiss kiss*

2003-05-14T21:11:00.000-07:00

monday - got my pc!!! cologne somehow got all over my backpack, now everything smells like cologne including my cell which is kinda messed up. registration lotto today. "oh my gosh sharon, that guy has such a big..." dirty lil mind lol.

tuesday - this was the LAST TIME.

today - hooked up the cable all by myself : ) chilled after school, actually felt happy for once in a really long time. today was a pretty good day.

i'm insecure. i need to get over it. i AM gonna get over it. i do not need to depend on other people to get through each day. i do not need anyone there to hold my hand through every little thing. i am strong and i can take care of myself.

why do we always seem, to want what we can't have?

toodles! *kiss kiss*

2003-05-11T15:37:00.000-07:00

i feel that everytime i have to make a decision i always choose the wrong one, especially if it's a really, really important one. i think i made a really bad decision a few weeks ago and since then, things have been bad. this makes me somewhat think over my 'seize the day' motto. so perhaps i should hold back and not take chances, but then i might regret not doing something. what a dilemma. well it all works out in the end, so if it doesn't work out, it's not the end.

anyways, have fun reading the survey.

B A S i C S
[ .001. ] first name: sandy
[ .002. ] middle name: n/a
[ .003. ] last name: hung
[ .004. ] nickname(s): sharon, slut, etc.
[ .005. ] gender: girl
[ .006. ] age: 15
[ .007. ] birthday: sept 5, 1987
[ .008. ] height: 5'4 or 5'5 ish
[ .009. ] hair color: light/golden brown w. blonde highlights
[ .010. ] eye color: brown
[ .011. ] race: asian
[ .012. ] do you wear glasses or contacts: one contact for my left eye
[ .013. ] do you have braces: nope, had them in 6h grade
[ .014. ] is your hair long or short: shoulder length
[ .015. ] where were you born: monterey park, ca
[ .016. ] current location: walnut
[ .017. ] zodiac sign: virgo
[ .018. ] how many languages do you know: english, french, mandarin, and i understand taiwanese
[ .019. ] nationality: taiwanese
[ .020. ] bad habits: lazyness, procrastination, the usual stuff
[ .021. ] piercings you have: ears & navel
[ .022. ] piercings you want: maybe 2 more on my ears
[ .023. ] tattoos you have: none
[ .024. ] tattoos you want: a heart maybe?
[ .025. ] today's date: may 11, 2003 - happy mother's day!
[ .026. ] time: 1226
[ .027. ] ready for a bunch more questions: sure why not
F A M i L Y
[ .028. ] mother's name: lulu lu
[ .029. ] father's name: chung jung hung
[ .030. ] step-parent's names: n/a
[ .031. ] brother(s)'s name(s): andy
[ .032. ] sister(s)'s name(s): candy
[ .033. ] favorite aunt: all of them
[ .034. ] favorite uncle: all of them
[ .035. ] favorite grandparent: grandma
[ .036. ] worst relative: can't really say
[ .037. ] best relative: ... not sure
[ .038. ] do you get along with your parents: at times
[ .039. ] does anyone in your family understand you? unfortunately no
P E T S
[ .040. ] do you have any pets: yeah
[ .041. ] what are their names: rice, rollie, and jumbo
[ .042. ] what kind of animals are they: dogs, i think they're special ed.
S C H 0 0 L
[ .043. ] are you still in school: yeah
[ .044. ] did you drop out: i wish
[ .045. ] current gpa, or last gpa you got: 3.5
[ .046. ] favorite grade: 8th
[ .047. ] least favorite grade: 9th and on
[ .048. ] favorite teacher: root
[ .049. ] least favorite teacher: puzo
[ .050. ] favorite subject: french
[ .051. ] least favorite subject: history, english
[ .052. ] do/did you buy lunch or bring it: lunch at home: stouffers lasagna yummie : )
[ .053. ] play any sports on the school's team: swim. lol, not really but sure : )
[ .054. ] do/did you do any extracurricular activities: best buddies!
[ .055. ] are/was you popular: haha what a joke
[ .056. ] favorite dance: haven't been to a dance yet, how pathetic huh
[ .057. ] favorite memory: too many to list
[ .058. ] least favorite dance: n/a
[ .059. ] least favorite memory: uhhh ...
[ .060. ] most humiliating moment: too many again

F A V 0 R i T E S
[ .061. ] number: 9
[ .062. ] clothing brand: xi, forever 21, charlotte russe, etc
[ .063. ] shoes: pink baby phats!
[ .064. ] saying: i dunno
[ .065. ] tv show: spongebob ... shows on mtv like punkd ... but i dont watch tv much
[ .066. ] sport: swim, vball
[ .067. ] vegetable: salad stuffs
[ .068. ] fruit: strawberries, grapes
[ .069. ] movie: x2 for now! iceman is HOT!!!
[ .070. ] magazine: cosmo girl, ym, etc
[ .071. ] actor: dunno
[ .072. ] actress: dunno
[ .073. ] candy: sour candy, cookies n creme ...
[ .074. ] gum: winterfresh, orbit
[ .075. ] scent: girls: divine from victoria secrets, guys: coolwater or curve, yummie : )
[ .077. ] ice cream flavor: strawberry
[ .078. ] color: pink, white, blue
[ .079. ] season: summer
[ .080. ] holiday: ... cant decide
[ .081. ] band: im starting to become a punk girl now lol, nfg, ataris, saves the day
[ .082. ] singer: christina aguilera, jt
[ .083. ] group: b2k, only cause j-boog is HOT!
[ .084. ] rapper: pharrell, sexy lol
[ .085. ] type of music: i like variety
[ .086. ] thing in your room: my bed! lol
[ .087. ] place to be: any good place to chill
[ .088. ] radio station: 106, 99.1, 100.3, 102.7, 103.1
[ .089. ] tv channel: mtv, music channels, nickelodeon cartoon channels, etc
[ .090. ] junk food: preztels, chili cheese fries
[ .091. ] overall food: pasta, fries, pizza, etc
[ .092. ] store: see 'clothing brand'
[ .093. ] shoe brand: phat farm, converse, fila
[ .094. ] fast food: in n out
[ .095. ] restaurant: bj's, oliver garden, etc
[ .096. ] shape: hearts and stars
[ .097. ] time of day: when the sun's not up
[ .098. ] country: usa
[ .099. ] state: cali
[ .100. ] boys name: dylan, sean
[ .101. ] girls name: starla
[ .102. ] mall: brea
[ .103. ] video game: mario cart, ddr, racing games
[ .104. ] shampoo: herbal essences, strawberry l'oreal shampoo, yummie
[ .105. ] board game: monopoly : )
[ .106. ] computer game: i dunno ...
[ .107. ] car: celica! supra, viper, rx7
[ .108. ] music video: i dunno
[ .109. ] swear word: ... not supposed to cuss
[ .110. ] word: i dunno
[ .111. ] month: july is good, summer
[ .112. ] cartoon character: spongebob, patrick & sandy. scooby doo.
[ .113. ] scary movie: im scared of scary movies haha
[ .114. ] team: lakers
[ .115. ] possession: everything!

WHATS THE FiRST THiNG Y0U THiNK 0F WHEN Y0U HEAR..
[ .116. ] eminem: soldier
[ .117. ] dog: cute
[ .118. ] hot: sexy
[ .119. ] britney spears: fake
[ .120. ] nsync: gross
[ .121. ] real world: road rules
[ .122. ] orange: juice
[ .123. ] choice: wrong
[ .124. ] fuck: who, haha
[ .125. ] bisexual: greedy
[ .126. ] black: fro
[ .127. ] icq: number
[ .128. ] insane clown posse: scary
[ .129. ] linkin park: meteroa
[ .130. ] jack: in the box
[ .131. ] rainbow: pretty
[ .132. ] cherry: helen
[ .133. ] cucumber: pickle
[ .134. ] shark: teeth
[ .135. ] lifehouse: hanging by a moment
[ .136. ] bat: man
[ .137. ] leather: tight
[ .138. ] whip: rough
[ .139. ] america: proud
[ .140. ] water: clear
[ .141. ] volcano: lava

T H i S - 0R - T H A T ?
[ .142. ] rock or rap: rock
[ .143. ] rock or pop: rock
[ .144. ] rock or r&b: r&b
[ .145. ] rock or metal: rock
[ .146. ] rap or pop: rap
[ .147. ] rap or r&b: r&b
[ .148. ] rap or metal: rap
[ .149. ] pop or r&b: r&b
[ .150. ] pop or metal: pop
[ .151. ] r&b or metal: r&b
[ .152. ] linkin park or limp bizkit: linkin park
[ .153. ] tool or korn: neither
[ .154. ] selena or jennifer lopez: both
[ .155. ] hot or cold: hot
[ .156. ] winter or summer: summer
[ .157. ] spring or fall: spring
[ .158. ] shakira or britney: britney
[ .159. ] icp or eminem: eminem
[ .160. ] marilyn manson or rob zombie: neither
[ .161. ] kittie or garbage: neither
[ .162. ] mtv or vh1: mtv
[ .163. ] buffy or angel: buffy
[ .164. ] dawson's creek or gilmore girl: gilmore girls
[ .165. ] football or basketball: basketball
[ .166. ] summer olympics or winter olympics: both
[ .167. ] skiing or snowboarding: snowboarding
[ .168. ] rollarblading or skateboarding: rollerblade
[ .169. ] black or white: white
[ .170. ] orange or red: red
[ .171. ] yellow or green: yellow
[ .172. ] purple or pink: pink
[ .173. ] slipknot or mudvayne: neither
[ .174. ] hot topic or pac sun: neither
[ .175. ] inside or outside: both
[ .176. ] weed or alcohol: alcohol
[ .177. ] cell phone or pager: cell
[ .178. ] pen or pencil: pen
[ .179. ] powerpuff girls or charlie's angels: both
[ .180. ] scooby doo or dino: scooby
[ .181. ] dragon ball z or pokemon: both
[ .182. ] star wars or star trek: star wars
[ .183. ] tattoos or piercings: both
[ .184. ] prep or punk: both
[ .185. ] slut or whore: slut, haha

P R i V A T E L i F E
[ .186. ] do you have a boyfriend or girlfriend: yeah
[ .187. ] do you have a crush: nope
[ .188. ] do you love anyone right now: yeah
[ .189. ] have you ever been in love: i'm in love
[ .190. ] how many people have you kissed: 4
[ .191. ] who was your first kiss: willie
[ .192. ] how many hearts of have you broken: none
[ .193. ] how many people broke your heart: one
[ .194. ] best quote to sum up love: 'love is always patient and kind...'
[ .195. ] so what is your bf/gf/crush like: he is special : )
[ .196. ] do you have a picture of him/her: yes, lots
[ .197. ] please post it if you do: ummm rather not
[ .198. ] do you have a picture of yourself: no
[ .199. ] please post it if you do: ummm no
[ .200. ] do you go by looks or personality: well first its looks, but then its personality
[ .201. ] ever kiss a friend: depends what you mean by 'friend'
[ .202. ] are you still friends: ^
[ .203. ] so moving along..do you smoke: no, it's bad for your health *ahem!*
[ .204. ] do you smoke weed: nope
[ .205. ] ever trip on acid: nope
[ .206. ] how about a little x.: nope
[ .207. ] crack, heroin, anything else: nope
[ .208. ] beer good or beer bad: could be both
[ .209. ] are you the sissy who drinks wine coolers: never had one
[ .210. ] do you like smirnoff ice: heck yea
[ .211. ] prefer beer or liquor: dunno
[ .212. ] what kind of cigarettes do you smoke: i don't smoke
[ .213. ] are you a virgin: for me to know and you to find out, but yeah : )
[ .214. ] if no, when was the last time you got some: ...

W O U L D Y O U E V E R
[ .215. ] bungee jump: yup yup
[ .216. ] sky dive: yea
[ .217. ] swim with dolphins: yup
[ .218. ] scuba dive: yea
[ .219. ] go rock climbing: yea
[ .220. ] eat shit for $1,000,000: hmmm ... thats a lot of money ...
[ .221. ] turn your back on your friends for personal gain: nah, im not that scandalous
[ .222. ] steal a friend's boyfriend/girlfriend: well not if they're together, cause that would suck
[ .223. ] cross-dress: for no reason? sure
[ .224. ] lie to the police: perhaps
[ .225. ] run from the police: maybe
[ .226. ] lie to your parents: yea
[ .227. ] walk up to a stranger and kiss them: depends on who and how they look like haha
[ .228. ] be an exotic dancer: i dunno, maybe if i was desperate
[ .229. ] walk out of a restaurant without paying: probably not
[ .230. ] streak: i dunno, probably

Y O U R F R i E N D S
[ .231. ] best friend: i have lots of best friends!
[ .232. ] known longest: staci i think?
[ .233. ] wish you talked to more: everyone
[ .234. ] wish you saw more: everyone
[ .235. ] how many friends do you think you have: i dunno, 2, give or take a few
[ .236. ] who drives you insane after a while: nobody, yet haha
[ .237. ] who can you stay around forever and never get sick of: ryan
[ .238. ] ever lose a good friend because you took it to the 'next level': haha ... what does 'next level' mean?
[ .239. ] craziest: i dunno
[ .240. ] loudest: sharon, charlene
[ .241. ] shyest: ...
[ .242. ] best hair: helen
[ .243. ] can always make you laugh: anyone
[ .244. ] best eyes: justin
[ .245. ] best body: uhh ...
[ .246. ] most athletic: too many
[ .247. ] sex symbol: i dunno?
[ .248. ] hot tempered: ....
[ .249. ] most impatient: ...
[ .250. ] shortest: staci?
[ .251. ] tallest: tommy
[ .252. ] talented: court
[ .253. ] best singer: haven't heard anyone sing ... elise is good
[ .254. ] skinniest: betty
[ .255. ] nicest: everyone
[ .256. ] best personality: everyone
[ .257. ] biggest drug user: uhh next question

H A V E Y O U E V E R
[ .258. ] flashed someone: nope
[ .259. ] told the person you liked how you felt: yeah, it didn't work out too good : (
[ .260. ] been to michigan: no
[ .261. ] gotten really REALLY wasted: nope
[ .262. ] gone to jail or juvi: no
[ .263. ] skateboarded: yes, and i'm never skateboarding ever agin
[ .264. ] skinny dipped: not yet haha
[ .265. ] stolen anything: ...
[ .266. ] wanted to kick my ass for making this so long: no not really
[ .267. ] kicked someone's ass: nah, haven't tried
[ .268. ] pegged someone in the head with a snowball: yup, my brother
[ .269. ] broke a beer bottle: nope
[ .270. ] gotten into a bar, under-aged: not yet
[ .271. ] kissed someone of the same sex: haha yup
[ .273. ] gone on a road trip: yea
[ .274. ] gone on vacation without adult supervision: not yet
[ .275. ] been to a concert: britney spears haha ... and soon christina and jt!
[ .276. ] been to another country: yup
[ .277. ] talked back to an adult: yup
[ .278. ] got pulled over: nope, thank god
[ .279. ] got in a car accident: nope
[ .280. ] broke a law: yup, im a rebel lol kidding!
[ .281. ] given money to a homeless person: yup
[ .282. ] tried to kill yourself: ...
[ .283. ] cried to get out of trouble: yeah
[ .284. ] kissed a friend's brother or sister: no
[ .285. ] kissed a brother or sister's friend: no
[ .286. ] dropped something on the floor that you were cooking and let someone eat it anyways? yeah

O P i N i O N S
[ .287. ] what do you think...about pop music: tiresome
[ .288. ] about boy bands: played out
[ .289. ] about flag burning: disrespectful
[ .290. ] of the war on terrorists: inevitible
[ .291. ] about suicide: bad
[ .292. ] about people who try to force their opinions on you: screw them
[ .293. ] about abortion: woman's right to choose
[ .294. ] about rock/metal music: it's cool, just not hardcore
[ .295. ] where do you think you'll be in 10 years: i have no idea, i hope i'll be happy, married?
[ .296. ] who do you think you'll still be friends with in 5 years: not sure

W H A T D i D Y O U DO
[ .297. ] last birthday: it was screwed up
[ .298. ] yesterday: shopping!
[ .299. ] last weekend: had some fun
[ .300. ] christmas: it was bad
[ .301. ] thanksgiving: it was really bad
[ .302. ] new year's: spent it with willie and bought my car!
[ .303. ] halloween: stayed home
[ .304. ] easter: chilled with willie
[ .305. ] valentine's day: nothing

T H E L A S T
[ .306. ] thing you ate: fries
[ .307. ] thing you drank: water
[ .308. ] thing you wore: pjs
[ .309. ] place you went: my room
[ .310. ] thing you got pierced/tattooed: belly button
[ .311. ] person you saw: willie
[ .312. ] person you kissed: willie
[ .313. ] person you fucked: ...
[ .314. ] person you talked to: willie
[ .315. ] song you heard: losing grip

N O W
[ .316. ] what are you eating: nothing
[ .317. ] what are you drinking: nothing
[ .318. ] what are you wearing: pjs
[ .319. ] any shoes on: barefoot
[ .320. ] hair: down
[ .321. ] listening to: at your funeral
[ .322. ] talking to anyone: nope
[ .323. ] are you pissed i made this so long: more like irritated

Y E S O R N O
[ .324. ] are you a vegetarian: nope
[ .325. ] do you like cows: not really
[ .326. ] are you a bitch: if i wanted to be
[ .327. ] are you artistic: not really
[ .328. ] do you write poetry: nope
[ .329. ] are you a fast runner: heck no
[ .330. ] can you ski: yup
[ .331. ] are you british: ho
[ .332. ] do you want to spear britney: not really
[ .333. ] do the voices talk to you: all the time
[ .334. ] did you ever give barbie a haircut: didn't have barbies
[ .335. ] would you eat mac &cheese with hot dogs in it: yeah
[ .336. ] do you think disney creators were on acid when they made 'alice in wonderland': yea
[ .337. ] are you straight: of course
[ .338. ] are you stupid, insane, and another physically handicapped: yes yes and yes
[ .339. ] are you fat: nope, im average
[ .340. ] are you skinny: nope
[ .341. ] are you short: average
[ .342. ] are you tall: nope
[ .343. ] do you own a hot pink shirt: nope, i prefer pastel pink
[ .344. ] how about orange pants: ewww no grody
[ .345. ] can you see the flying monkeys: of course not
[.346. ] are you evil: of course not : )
[ .347. ] did you ever know someone who had a mullet: haha no
[ .348. ] is britney a whore: maybe, maybe not
[ .349. ] are you a teenage zombie: no
[ .350. ] am i annoying you: yea
[ .351. ] do you like marilyn manson: no
[ .352. ] are you secretly from another planet: quite possible
[ .353. ] did you ever touch someone else's private parts: haha
[ .354. ] do you shop at hot topic: no

R A N D O M Q U E S T i O N S
[ .355. ] if you could be any animal, what would you be: dolphin
[ .356. ] if you had to eat one thing for the rest of your life, what would you eat: fries
[ .357. ] do you remember any of your dreams: yeah sometimes, but lately not as much
[ .358. ] do you dream in color or black and white: usually color
[ .359. ] do you admit when you need help with a problem: yeah
[ .360. ] can people read you like a book: usually not
[ .361. ] what's your biggest fear: clowns, being alone
[ .362. ] do you talk a lot: when i want to
[ .363. ] are you afraid of clowns: yes
[ .364. ] do you like spiders: no
[ .365. ] how about grape kool-aid: grody
[ .366. ] can you drive: yup, just not legally : )
[ .367. ] are you spoiled: at times
[ .368. ] are you anti-social: npe
[ .369. ] do you see dumb people: constantly
[ .370. ] do you see dead people: nope
[ .371. ] any last words: i want my new comp damn it! ... toodles! *kiss kiss*
[ .372. ] now that this is over, what are you going to do: get something to drink, im thirsty

2003-05-11T12:25:00.000-07:00

i think i totally failed my ap test. there goes my 80 dollars down the drain. stupid puzo, didn't give us the financial aid stuff earlier, then i could've saved 75 bucks, grrr. but yeah, that's that.

thought that my computer was going to come on friday, but it didnt, so i guess i gotta wait till tomorrow. i cannot wait to be free of this piece of junk i'm using right now.

went to the new ikea at covina with willie on friday. that place is HUGE! the parking is like the parking at disneyland. they had this cart escalator that takes the carts from the basement upstairs, very cool. bought candles, candle holders, and a bunny lamp. i wish i could live at ikea, that would be great. when i get to deorate my own place, everything would be from ikea.

went to montclair with willie to shop for my dress. lots pregnant people / people with babies, thank goodness i don't have to be a part of that everyday. but i eventually got a dress and shoes, willie paid for it. i think the dress is a little over semi-formal, but i'm probably gonna wear it for homecoming or winter formal next year to save money. yeah i know, i'm a typical asian : )

gotta go to dinner tonight with relatives, haven't seen them for the longest time. they're probably all make a big deal about my hair and say that i'm turning 'american' blah blah blah ... torture.

toodles! *kiss kiss*

2003-05-07T20:47:00.000-07:00

ahhhhhhh!!!
2 more days to cram, well more like a little over one day but yeah.
at least i got a b on my practice dbq, that totally made my day : )

got a 4/5 on my poetry essay, it's a b, so i'm happy with that.

had bj's for lunch, that made my day too.

i think this is the climax of my dilemma. i have a feeling that something's gonna happen, something bad. been so stressed out lately, i need to meditate or do some yoga ... i have enough wrinkles and strands of gray hair. i need help.

i don't get my computer till monday, stupid delays. grrr so frustraated. hopefully i'll be able to keep it in my room, then i'll finally have one cool thing in my room.

get to go shopping this weekend, what a great way to relieve stress. then hopefully next weekend will be a party weekend.

toodles! *kiss kiss*

2003-05-06T20:40:00.000-07:00

'breaking and entering' ... insomnia AGAiN!!!

broken promise. dilemma. confused. makes everything THAT much harder.
must everyone stress me out???
seems like i make the wrong choices. i think i make the 'right' choices, but it just backfires on me. so maybe now i should just stick with making 'unsatisfactory' decisions, that way it might just turn out to be not-so-unsatifactory? it's a long shot...

living in a bubble dome under the sea at bikini bottom doesn't sound too bad right about now.

oh yeah, how could i forget: 3 more days to cram.

smile! hope you're having a better day/week/month than me.

toodles! *kiss kiss*

2003-05-04T13:57:00.000-07:00

thursday - attempted to do something. elbow was messed up.

friday - picked up sharon and helen from alpha and went to the mall. couldn't watch x2, sorry guys it's my fault! psychopath, need to watch 'fear'. dropped helen off. then sharon and i went to db to watch x2. pretty cool. then stayed over at sharon's house

saturday - practice euro test. kinda passed it. got my hair done, now its light/golden brown w. blonde highlights.

well everything's been crazy lately. i dunno how or why, but i forgave him. but this is THE LAST TIME. yeah i know i've said this over and over again. but after what happened on thursday, this IS the last time.

2003-04-30T22:56:00.000-07:00

another thing ... jackie, cisco, and i were triplets today cause we all wore baby blue w. jeans. funny stuff.

useless random fact: it's not possible to fold any piece of paper more than 7 times in halves.

toodles! *kiss kiss*

2003-04-30T21:02:00.000-07:00

i ordered a new computer from dell. it's not the greatest, but it's pretty damn good for only $700, hopefully $600 if i can call and get them to take off the shipping fee. can't wait, i'm finally gonna get to have something fun in my boring lil room.

the past week has been so stressful. i've gotten at least two strands of gray hair, grrr. and the past two days have been extreme. major dilemma, i just wish that someone would just make a decision for me, then everything would be cool.

toodles! *kiss kiss*

2003-04-28T22:27:00.000-07:00

my explorer hasn't been working for the past 2 weeks, which meant can't open files. finally found out that i could use the explorer on winamp, duh sandy!

spring break was okay. sick since last sunday, my mom thinks i have sars. today is day 8. i have infected at least 3 other people. it's okay, i had my fun.

toodles!

2003-04-10T21:29:00.000-07:00

the darkest day of my high school career.

i didn't know him. but i wish i did, maybe i could've done something about it. i feel so horrible. school is going to be so different now, a lot more stricter. poor guy, i wish i could've helped him. my thoughts and prayers are with him and his loved ones.

this really shook me. what if it happened to me? i would not know what to do if i was her. my thoughts and prayers are with her too.

am i just ignorant or did walnut used to be such a nice little town? i think i'm just ignorant. the first tragic incident i remember was the gang shooting incident. then it was the car accident at sac. now this. this goes to show that anything can happen anywhere.

i can't believe that there were still people kidding around and laughing as if it were a joke. this is a SERIOUS matter. i could not believe that some people were worried about whether or not they could take their lunch to 5th period, sheesh.

i found my motivation. i am going to help people.

rest in peace brandon flores

2003-04-09T21:16:00.000-07:00

so much to do, so little motivation

random thoughts; i'm majorly behind in english, still need to finish reading a book and 2 plays. did sorta decent on the poetry essay, too bad i have such a low writing register. euro is nothing but a bitch. can't wait to take psych, hopefully it'll be as fun as i think it'll be. gas prices are going down yay! my nails are still fucked up. my sister is a bitch. i really need to start going to the gym ...

2003-04-07T21:19:00.000-07:00

hello all! today was a great day, well actually this whole week has been great.

tuesday - pigged out on ice cream at school, scrumptious!

wednesday - fully loaded, very sexy 6

thursday - dropped off clothes for sharon, then came home and made spaghetti with my baby, yum yum!

friday - probably the worst day of my week. i was feeling feverish after lunch and threw up at practice. it was great, and especially since jocelyn was all bitching at me to get back in. hell no woman, i felt like shit so i just went home. took a long, luxurious nap. then in the wee hours of the night/early morning, i finally learned how to drive stick decently. very proud of myself, but i still gotta work on the damn hills.

saturday - willie and i spent half the day washing our cars, well it was more like him washing our cars hehe. they both looked hella clean, took pictures of our beauties. then just chilled at gameworks, man i am so out of shape it's disgusting.

sunday - kinda went 'shopping' with my mom, but we only went to two stores. ended up only getting a pair of shorts, a skirt, and a halter. wanted to get other stuff, but i didn't want to make my mom wait and all. went to speedzone with willie. ate dinner and cleaned his car *again* for later that night. it was boring, too many cops, no fun at all, especially since i got out late, poop.

today - discovered that i had gotten the governor's scholarship, which made my day, week, and month. not to mention that i got a $45 refund for my chem book. got daytime lights for my car, so now i'm pimpin with blue and white.

toodles! *kiss kiss*

2003-03-31T21:30:00.000-08:00

'i practiced ... i just wanna dance ...'

i'm not sure but i feel this sudden urge to dance. i just wanna dance dance and dance. i just realized that i haven't been to a single dance at walnut yet, what a loser huh. i wanna go to prom, but i don't think anyone will invite me, and even if they do, i probably won't be 'allowed' to go with them knowing how some things are. it seems that people have lost trust in each other, it's pretty sad if i do say so myself. but yeah, who knows what will happen.

i wanna take dance, either hip hop and/or hula, but salsa seems cool too. i've caught myself dancing more around the house when i hear music on the radio or the tv. i just have so much energy bottled up inside of me that's just begging to be released. i wanna go clubbing. well i just wanna dance in general. dance dance dance, that's all i wanna do.

but unfortunately, homework is calling my name. see ya!

toodles! *kiss kiss*

2003-03-30T14:51:00.000-08:00

busy weekend!

friday - i don't remember much about what happened. we looked around at the subaru dealer. then watched 'ghost ship'

saturday - busy morning, had to take the car to the shop, then take my brother to the doctors. by the time i got to school to help with the posters they were all done, oops. then went to get an oil change which took 2 freakin hours. finally, willie and i went go to a ford dealership to look at the cobras and machs. people kept looking at me cause i was the only asian person there, sheesh. then we went to the block. yay he bought me blue lights for my car! hehe. watched 'head of state' which was pretty funny, but the funniest part was when they were dancing which was already in all the previews so yeah. fun fun fun!

guess who's going to the jt & christina concert??? = D ... i really do love that boy

toodles! *kiss kiss*

2003-03-27T19:20:00.000-08:00

sorry if i acted differently today, as in being more bitchy and moody than usual. i was just in a bad mood cause i'm pms-ing. so please just excuse my extra-bitchy behavior.

i decided that i'm not going to let what other people think or say affect me. i don't understand why there are so much haters in the world. if they take all the time they spend hating on other people, and use it to improve their lives, then it would make everyone happy. nobody has the right to make assumptions about me if they don't know jack shit about me. now it would be a whole different story if they knew all the things that go on in my life, but they don't. nobody's living my life except for me. therefore, if you don't know me, don't judge me. don't hate, just congratulate.

toodles! *kiss kiss*

2003-03-26T21:20:00.000-08:00

swim practice, i am so dark that i am unofficially flip now. i want to get rid of my swimsuit tan. i need to either go to a tanning salon or a nude beach. but then that won't help much cause i'll just get darker all over, darn. i just want to get rid of my freakin tan grrr! i just want my skin to be the same color all over, is that so much to ask for? sheesh ... well bigger boobs would be nice too. but then i would have to gain weight to have bigger boobs. and knowing me, i'll probably be too lazy to work out the rest of my body and i would just keep the all weight on. well i just need to start working out in general. gotta start biking and jogging again, i am so ridiculously out of shape. okay enough of that.

i had a dream that someone killed my sister. i was on an army base in the middle of the desert with sylvia and two little girls when i found out that my sister had been missing. then sylvia told me that she had heard that they found a dead body in the desert. apparently someone had hired a hit-woman to kill my sister, who was a soldier. ha, my sister would never in her life serve the country, or anyone else for that matter. then i was scared that the hit-woman was going to kill me too. then i woke up. i wonder if the drea is supposed to mean anything.

isn't it scary when you're talking to one person about someone else, then all of a sudden that other person calls you or something. trips me out. and then when i picked up the phone to call someone, somebody else was on the phone asking for me. that tripped me out even more. i have such a small, simple mind.

much love to jimmy cause he said that i'm cool, which makes him super cool. you guys should check him at his xanga.

toodles! *kiss kiss*

2003-03-25T19:32:00.000-08:00

"life is what happens to you when you're busy making other plans."

for every action there is an equal and opposite reaction.
ying and yang.
good and evil.

i guess the world must remain balanced in some way in order for life to go on.
for every good thing that happens, something bad will happen and vice versa.
well something very good happened a few days ago, and just like all the other good things, it was taken away.

i am so thankful and so blessed to have him in my life. someone up there must really love him and watch over him. i love him.

toodles! *kiss kiss*

2003-03-24T20:02:00.000-08:00

bored. quizzes found on lyn's blog.

Which Disney Princess Are You?

this quiz was made by Erin

Which dog breed are you?

this quiz was made by Erin

Which Plant Are You?

this quiz was made by Erin

What month should you have been born in?

this quiz was made by Erin

You should have been born in April!
You're active and dynamic. But hasty and you tend to regret things later. You're mentally strong and you love attention. You're friendly and good at working out peoples problems. You're brave, fearless and adventurous. You're loving and caring, yet aggressive and emotional.

well that's that. got 4 a's and 2 b's on my progress report. didn't get the scholarship thing. man i feel stupid. even my mom called me stupid. i should've been able to get it, but i didn't cause i'm freakin retarded. well i'm gonna try harder this year, but is that really gonna work? probably not. my mom has such high expectations of me. i'm not like my fucking sister nor do i ever want to be anything like her. *sorry for the profanity* i would never want to become ignorant, selfish, and arrogant just so i can become a better student and 'achieve more' in academics. well everyone gets what they deserve, so i'm hoping that someone someday, soon, will teach her a lesson. and when she does learn her lesson, i'll be there laughing my ass off at her :D

toodles! *kiss kiss*

2003-03-23T13:44:00.000-08:00

i wonder if anyone actually reads this ... well for anyone who does care, here is my wonderful day yesterday

i got to ride, and drive, in a black 98 supra tt. willie just actually bought it earlier that day and when he drove by my house my eyes were wide open, jaw dropped, and drooling uncontrollably. it is the embodiment of sexyness. it's auto, which is a plus for me, but yet i kinda wished it was manual so that i could drive stick, believe it or not, i actually like it and it's somewhat fun. but yeah, auto is good too, that ways i can drive it without killing the car too much. it also has a sport roof. so we just cruised around yesterday with the top off, definitely an eye-catcher. it picks up speed like crazy, we were doing 140 on the freeway and barely noticed it, or maybe we're just used to the speed :D it does very well considering at has at least 320 hp, it might have a little more since there's an exhaust and headers, maybe an intake too, i forgot. but yeah, it is one sexy ass supra. i wish i had one, but then again what belongs to willie belongs to me, so i own like 1% of it? haha it's cool, i'm satisfied with my celica :D

toodles! *kiss kiss*

2003-03-22T17:59:00.000-08:00

today i went shopping with twin at brea ... we didn't have enough time to go through all the stores, and sides it would've just made us sad cause we both didn't have much money ... went to hollister and got the most coolest shirt ever! on the back it says: sandy!!! lol ... and i wanted to get this really cute skirt from abercrombie but i didn't have enough money, darn ... it's times like these when i wished that i had a rich boyfriend who likes to take me shopping and buy lots of clothes for me ... i can dream can't i??? hehehe

toodles! *kiss kiss*

2003-03-19T20:11:00.000-08:00

yesterday ... i hate my family ... no i take that back, i hate my sister ... i came at the beginning of 3rd because my mom said it was okay if i went late... she called my mom and lied that the attendance office called home and said i wasn't at school today ... and the stupid part is that my mom actually believed her even though she personally called attendance to excuse my tardy ... what is wrong with the world today?

and then when i went to the mall today, i saw this lady who was at least three times the size of me, lengthwise, who was talking to a security guard ... i walked by her and i heard her say very loud and clear 'isn't that a little too revealing?' ... i was so close to turning around and making her cry her freakin eyes out ... for example: 'isn't that a little too much cellulite? have you ever heard of a tummy tuck? cause you need about 3 of those. if you were to wear a shirt like mine, you would need a freakin tablecloth' etc ... but i didn't want her to sit on me and kill me cause i knew that once i got started, i wouldn't stop ... it would've been a very painful death anyways

today was another horrible day of this month ... my keys got locked in my car cause of my bro, he sure is 'special' ... tried to unlock it with a hanger but it wasn't successful ... some joggers were staring at my friend and i ... i guess they thought that we were trying to break into my car, maybe it's cause he was black ... but we gave up and he ended up calling triple a for me yay! you're the bestest aaron! *muah*

so that was my eventful day

toodles! *kiss kiss*

2003-03-17T19:16:00.000-08:00

hey sexy how you doin? hehehe ... busy weekend, spent the whole time at barstow ... helped sylvia pack and then went looking on base ... there were some pretty cute soldiers there hehehe ... some looked hella sexy in those bdu's, too bad that theyre too old for me, darn hehehe ... being on base is kinda fun, but it would suck to work there ... it's too sandy for me hehe ... but yeah, and then this big picture frame thing fell off a shelf and hit me on my head, which gave me a lil bump and a big headache ...

so i didnt go to sadies or aj's party ... i really wanted to go to aj's though, oh well ... but at least im not caught up in all that drama and ish ... i wanna go to a dance ... maybe someone will ask me to prom ... ha, what a joke

im hungry ... dinner time

toodles! *kiss kiss*

2003-03-13T20:41:00.000-08:00

i got a new cell, yay!!! and im planning to keep this one for longer than a week xP

funny thing happened while i walked to my car after school today ... some random guy in a car asked me what my name was, said hi, and drove away ... well it wasnt really some random guy cause ive seen him around at school and all, but still it was strange ... he was pretty cute though hehehe

sadies is on sat, too bad im not goin ... now i gotta decide whether to go to the party or not ... i really wanna go, but then again this is the last weekend im gonna be able to see sylvia cause she's going away for a whole year ... what a bummer ... madness

toodles! *kiss kiss*

2003-03-09T23:06:00.000-08:00

things have been insane lately ...

thursday i scraped my knee and i'm missing skin there and it hurts! but then everything was better
friday was an okay day ... watched 'tears of the sun' ... decent movie, but too many dead people for me ... some of the navy guys were pretty cute though hehe
saturday i went ice skating with my baby ... he fell down once, and i didnt fall at all hehehe, but its only cause he saved me at least 3 times ... fun fun fun!
just chilled today ... then went the the chevy/hummer dealer to look at cars ... i would definitely choose a hummer over a tahoe, no brainer

well ima go bed early today

toodles! *kiss kiss*

2003-03-06T19:21:00.000-08:00

now that i look back on the past week or two, my life has changed dramatically ... well maybe not as dramatic as you may think, but there have been so many changes ... wow is all i can say ... well today was a super great day, considering that nothing too bad happened haha ... well 2 major things happened today, which were both really good and really bad, so i guess it was an altogether balanced day ... i finally got another chem book, thanks sharon for letting me borrow $! then i showed her that reallly ironic article in the magazine, the description fits me perfectly, how scary ... ]

there's so many thoughts running around in my head right now and i dunno what to, ai yah!
well ima go eat, cause eatting always makes me feel better haha
... no wonder im so fat

toodles! *kiss kiss*

2003-03-05T19:08:00.000-08:00

the past week has ... SUCKED, SUCKED AND SUCKED!!!
... yeah pretty much it

last monday i got my cell
then on thursday my car died
and monday i lost my chem book
the next day i lost my cell
today ... my car died again

... someone told me that bad things happen to good people ... well then i must be a freakin saint or something eh???
on and on top of everything the first person that tried to jumpstart my car today screwed up and it busted my radio/clock ... i need to get a job

my life is a vacuum ... it sucks

2003-03-03T18:50:00.000-08:00

watched 'cradle 2 the grave' yesterday ... fight scenes were great, but what is up with jet li kicking/punching everyone in the balls? it must suck to be a guy, ouch ... sick again, wonderful eh? swim meet today, only swam in the damn 200 free relay ... waste of my freakin time ... oh yeah i fucking lost my chem book today ... im such a fucking retard, i set it down during passing period before 4th and i just left it there, and i didn't realize that i lost it till the end of 4th ... man i hope someone nice turned my book in, i'll be forever grateful ... but yeah, today sucked ... and then in chem sharon sprayed a lil bit of the mj cologne and it was so freakin strong it almost made me wanna throw up ... it smells nice for a while, but then its just too overwhelming ... curve is good, so is coolwater hehe ... naptime

toodles! *kiss kiss*